This is who I am Now

Blogging.

2009-05-13T12:32:00.002+08:00

Blogging at wrk nw.. So bored.. Grad is almost here.. Exactly 2 weeks! Can't wait for it. Haha can finally meet up with peeps again then hopefully go out. But that day so many things on sia.. Everyone asking me go this n tht.. But declined cause it's graduation!! Haha..
Back to stonning...

-zach
Is wondering what presents to buy for mum sis n bro..

Boredom strikes back!

2009-04-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

Ok.. It's been a fw days since I last blogged.
Nthin new these past few days I guess.. Been wrking a hell lot so that I can earn enough money to buy my laptop.
In the month of may it's gonna be really busy fr me. Gonna wrk Mon-sun fr the entire month except on a few dates. Like the 11th to attend clauds grad. 27th for mine. Wondering when is japheths. Yeah.. Atm it's those few dates.. On the 2nd I'm supposedly to have a pro sch gathering but I'm by sure if I can make it.

I'm hoping by end of next month I'd have enough to get a decent mid range lappy.. And I'm nt gonna get acer.. So many problems..
If nt I'll just buy a desktop.

Currently listening to moment of truth by FMstatic.

-zach
Is gonna turn in early.
Is wrking box tmr.

Who I am hates who I've been by relient k

2009-04-09T00:39:00.002+08:00

Anyways... Heres some lyrics that I've found some belonging to. It's by a mainstreamed Christian band called relient k. The song title is called who I am hates who I've been.

Who I am hates who I've been
By relient k

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific and
I think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics.

Cause I don't want you to know
Where I am.
Cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.
And This is no place to,
Try and live my life.

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line? I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, I never should have said that
It's the very moment that I wishes that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
Im ready to make sure I'll never become that way again.
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talked to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Has finally begin to build up so much pressure
That I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reveberatin( think that's how you spell it) footsteps,
Seeking up to the beating of my heart.
And I was positive
that unless I gotl myself together
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let this happen again.
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
And this is no place to
Try and live my life.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that It took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure ill never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been..

So tiring!! Type this whole song.....

I'm back!

2009-04-09T00:33:00.002+08:00

Hello all.. I'm back! Just realized I could blog with my itouch. Haha.
It's been a long time since I blogged.
Exams are long over. Laptop is spoilt cause I accidently spilt water over it.
I'm still wrking at Cathay hoping to find a better paying job. Had a cell chalet last week.
Puked for the first time in 10 years. Did other stuff I haven't dome since a looooong time ago.
Screwed my life even more. Hmm.. That's about the summary of what has happened.

It's just so boring these few days. It's getting really really mundane and depressing. Waiting for
The letter for army.. Aziz gt his yest. Gg to scdf poor him..

Think that's all for now..
Flood my tagboard people!! Cause I'm back :)

-zach
Is in a daze..

damn it.

2009-01-28T00:43:00.003+08:00

argh. damn it.
feeling so damn pissed.
whole day's mood spoiled by my step mom again.
this time was really overboard.
and she treats it like nothing.
wth is this man.

"you still living under my roof."

now what was the bloody sentence for?

-zach
is too tired to think of this anymore.
is going to sleep.
has a terrible CNY.
is nt complaining about the lil amount received but what his stepmom said.

CNY!

2009-01-27T00:49:00.003+08:00

hey peeps its CHINESE NEW YEAR!
well most of you would go wooo! ang pao! but i oh damn it. got exam for this year.
this year has been alright so far. helped my aunt win like RM130 from blackjack. haha. first time i won so much. so now at hand i have save to about RM300 inclusive of this years ang pao. dont know what i am gg to do with it. maybe save up some more can go malaysia with classmates for shopping. but dont know when will that time come.

suddenly thought of blogging cause i havent updated in weeks and cause im bored of doing ppt slides for my airframe system presentation on wednesday. i really just want to get it over with as quick as possible. my part like got nothing much to say. its like just ailerons, elevators and main landing breaks. still dont know why they split the parts for landing breaks. its like exactly the same for the boeing 727.

tomorrow gg visit claud. this year also kinda boring. so many people nt gg this year. after clauds place gg to lich's place. nvm at least still gt some ang bao to collect =D dont get much every year so yeah need to fully utilize the chances. lol. sound so money face.

listening to savoir by rise against. the lyrics for their whole album is like so poetic. and so anti-american at times. lol. its like all about soldiers and wars and their patriotism while they get nothing back. this includes their love lives and stuff.

quite a good band.

here's the lyrics from their song savior.

It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you
I don't hate you

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no

the tune is so darn catchy. damn it. lol. its stuck in my head!
anyways i gonna wait for the cow to come. pass her her ipod back.
miraculously fixed it when plugged in to my lappy. lol.

-zach
is gg on to facebook to play geochallenge while waiting for the cow.

Thank God

2009-01-17T02:29:00.002+08:00

I'd like to thank God for everything he's done! haha.
somehow or rather I gt a silver for napfa! haha. lucky me.
Im so glad this week is over, managed to complete almost half of the assignments.
and another half to go!
got so many tests coming up. dont know if can make it anot. but I trust in him and i believe he will lead the way.

Summary of Ecclesiasties 3:1-8
To everything there is a season.
I've been through a lot and im sure soon the tide will turn.

farah's phone spoilt so cant msg. haha. cant make aziz jealous anymore.
oh and i got my phone bill today. somehow i dont know how i sent 1900++ msges. when my phone is seldom used. lol. i didnt even wish people a happy new year this year but it went up to 1900++. could it be because of the sms jam?? anyway lucky i using student plan so no limit! wakaka. so happy.

just finished la lingerie online. damn good show and the girls all so hot. tell you see eyes also pop out.
good storyline also even though it was quite predictable how the ending would be like. and somehow w/o subtitles i could understand 98% of the film.

Love cantonese shows. just damn good and funny. ok la time to go to bed.
goodnights all! gg JB later after dunno how many months of not gg cause im like finally free of doing projects on weekends.

Studying HF and doing FYP report tomorrow. hope i get something in to my stupid head.
cant wait for the hong kong trip. Hei Hei turned 9 yesterday. hope he had a great celebration.
-zach
is going to sleep now.

I've never been to me.

2009-01-13T00:37:00.002+08:00

Its been a rather boring night today. and thats why im here blogging.

updates for last week.
Spinnovex.
photos can be found on facebook.
lizzay's farewell.
photos can be found on facebook.

realizations:
been smsing very very little.
been stoning a lot more.
spending has decreased in quantity but increased in amount($) for each item.
Life is a puzzle and we're like mice finding the cheese in it.

i dont know what to type!
writers block.
la la la la la la la la.
oh! i know.
got a lot of reports to hand in this week.
ok now what...

aiya. im gg to slp la. need wake up early for leong chun nams gay class.

Resolution

2009-01-07T23:40:00.002+08:00

Okay since its the new year, I've decided to do something that I haven't done in a loooooooooooooooong time and thats is to just thrust everything in to God's hand. Which means just accepting whatever problems i will be facing and whatever shitty job i must do.

oh well. tired now should be gg to sleep soon. open house starts tomorrow. all the best to everyone =)

-zach
is feeling slightly at peace these few days.

bloody hell.

2009-01-03T02:06:00.003+08:00

pardon my language for this post.

My mum is really Fucked up i tell you.
sometimes i really can stand her any more.
Just because of a bloody facebook application also need to bloody fucking scold me?
what the hell.
Chat with classmates kena scold, put wallpaper kena scold, adjust comp settings also kena scold.
like what the hell do you want?
then stand behind me like stalker just so she see that i follow whatever she want me to do for the facebook application.
Mother fucking chao chee bai ni na bu gan ni ma.

sometimes i really wonder what the hell did I do that made her treat me like this.
sure i was a rascal when i was young. but i was a kid.

guess this is why im so fucked up as well.

-zach
is really pissed off.

its the new year! oh "yay"

2009-01-02T01:12:00.002+08:00

its the new year! oh wow. i still dont feel the joy and excitement in it. freaking computer is gg haywire. stupid reports to write. even more assignments to do. it feels like a bloody torture, but i still have to go through it like everyone else.
now thats life.

In service this year as i looked around to look at the faces that were full of hope and excitement this year and wondered to myself. what happened to that hope and excitement i used to have? where has it gone? Everywhere i went it felt like i was in ghost town. Parties were a drag school was a bore.

As the new year kicks in, the old feeling should go but somehow or rather it still lingers. Didnt have to drink to feel sober. just staring at the screen of my comp was enough. listening to the carpenters and humming to the tune of yesterday once more.

"When i was young, i'd listen to the radio waiting for my favourite songs. when they played i'd sing a long, they made me smile. Those were such happy times and not so long ago how i wonder where'd they gone? but their back again just like a long lost friend..."

Oh well, its good to see you again after all these while.

-zach
is still trying to knock himself out with the whole bottle of vodka but all it does is to make him cringe at the taste of it.( He needs a mixer)

Gosh.

2008-12-30T02:25:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Im getting so lazy to update nowadays.
Well its almost the new year. woo hoo. im so "excited".
she says its gonna be a better year i say not.
finally finished the airframe test today, was doable.
did stats. still gt airframe project and FYP report to write, so behind time. but also got no mood. Exhausted all the energy for the project already.

Gosh. im like stonning infront of the comp. the though of school for this week is just so haix. and open house is next week. Most prob gonna be pulled out of the tentage, which is already demoralising enough.

anyways, its like 2.30 in the morning now. time to go to bed.

-zach
is bumming around.

Firewater by Yellowcard

2008-12-29T02:19:00.001+08:00

You sat me down beside myself
To show me all the reasons I was wrong for you
Was this for real? It's hard to tell
'Cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into

I'm gonna overcome this, paper hearts can't win this time
And all along I should have known this wasn't your dream, it was mine
I know you wanted me to give up this life to be
Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in

I was never good at goodbye...

Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face

When we were starting out, you believed in me without a doubt
You were the finest thing to happen to a boy like me
It's so much harder now, I wanna try and tell you how
There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see

And I was never good at goodbye...

Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes

Today I couldn't stay awake
Feels like I'm drowning in this firewater lake
I won't be sleeping much tonight
It's not the same without you lying by my side
(Right beside me)

Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes

I know you wanted me to give up my life to be
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
Everything I am when you're the only thing that I can see
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
I'm sorry but you're not the, not the only one for me
(So this brain in my head can forget your face)

You left me here beside myself
Left me with all the reasons why I was wrong for you

delay

2008-12-27T20:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!
sry for the delay in updates the past few weeks.
its been uberly hectic and my comp crashed. so yeah. now its back and theres tons to update. but i dont tink i'll be doing it today.

tired!.
haha.
maybe later tonight.

-zach
is back but tired to update.

last week of the term!

2008-12-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

hey all its te last week of the term! woo.
completed 4 tests in the pass 5 days. actually 3 tests and 1 quiz.
fri had stats quiz. yest had QEM and stats test. and had my MD test today. woo! so much more relieved now. only left the stupid HF debate and aeroma test this fri. and its the break! lol.

but gonna be busy working and completing all the assignments as well as study for airframe systems test and train for napfa. lol. thats a lot of things to do. not forgetting completing my FYP. its like 1 month away from SP Open House. like omg omg omg!

anyways congrats to brenda for passing ur driving! now u can drive us around after service =DD. just joking! haha.

been stonning a lot these few days. wondering what to do. like totally aimless. feels weird. well but that doesnt matter. lol. its only study study study for this sem.

anyways my "DA JIE" is coming back from aussie! yay. havent seen her since she graduated! which was like 6 years ago? lol.

theres so much on my mind now that i cant figure out what to type. so i think i'll just stop here. wait till my mind is clear. fatigue is kicking in. need to turn in soon.

-zach
is feeling exhausted.
is almost braindead.
has watch heroes so3e11 ! lol. random.

how long has it been?

2008-11-27T23:51:00.002+08:00

hmmm how long has it been since i last blogged?? lol. ages!
sry peeps to keep you waiting.
schools been utterly busy these few days and i've been tryin to catch up on my studies. so been stayin in sch till the wee hourse to study.

found a study group in my new class. haha. aziz,ahmad(sometimes), melvin and kah seng! haha. each of us split assignments so its so much easier to do and faster.

had my napfa today. overall i failed cause of 2.4km run. completed in 14 mins on the dot. lol. standing broad i did 252 i tink without swinging and stuff. shuttle run 9. somethingsit and reach 38. lol i forced myself to go further till my back cramped. situps 42. i did the minimum toget 3 points haha.pull ups i did 10! haha. 4-5 were like nt the proper ones. haha.

tomorrow im having my NS med checkup. hope it'll be ok.
4 tests coming up next week. God please help me.
2 assignments to hand in. technically their done. haha.

holidays are near! which means work! which means $$$$$$$$ whooppeee! haha.
my FYP has been taking up a lot of my time too. but oh well really need to put in effort if wanna complete in time and since gt 2 hitchers. the remaining 4 would need to work harder.
tomorrow gonna seal the canopy and do the push pull rods. and lotsa stuff. haha. hoping by sunday we can do the submerging.

anyways. im almost dead beat now. so im gonna go to bed. hoping tomorrow would be a better day. cherrios!

DONT FORGET TO TAG!!!!!!!!!

-zach
overstrained his muscles
is sleep walking soon

update time!

2008-11-16T02:07:00.002+08:00

hey all its been a great week! i guess. lol.
Its my birthday week! weeee~ haha
tuesday after sch went to the singapore flyer and sat it with my mom cause she had free tix. my dad used his already so he was waiting for us downstairs. as we entered i saw a familiar face. ALFIAN! lol. my ncc friend. he was opening the cabin door for us. haha. after the flyer was supposedly to go SWENSENS. but then my mom say whole family sick so go eat japanese buffet instead. so we went to kuishin bo. at suntec and thats where i got my running shoes as well YIPEE! haha.

wed went out with classmates. went for sushi buffet and then caught a movie followed by pool. thnks ar guys. lol. wrap my present with 19 layers of NEWSPAPER. then ask me open whilst having lunch. lol. the people must be wth this guy got so much newspaper. haha. and thx for the 2 gifts!! a 5x5 rubikz cube from the whole group and GREY GOOSE from ment and kel. THX THX! A LOT ALOT!! haha. xmas party got thing to drink lo!

thursday went back to running after a super long break. its was the break in period of 3 things. my new shoes new shorts and my stamina which has been reduced to dunno what after my 1 month+ ordeal of coughing.

Fri well the only thing that i wwanna say is thx for the grey goose! lol. i ran to clement house from my place which took me about 25 mins. just to take my bday gift! haha. and boy is that worth it. lol.

pictures of the week is below.
-----Scrap that-------
blogger having problem uploading pics -.- and i too lazy to use photo bucket. lol.

sry peeps another day!

-zach
is gg to sleep now.

WEE!

2008-11-08T03:39:00.002+08:00

Hello all!
today has been a GREAT day i tell you!. haha. well managed to complete the canopy and base for my FYP, had a run( which totaly helped get rid of part of my cough i think) and spent time with my sec sch clique the PUBLIC NUISANCE GANG! haha and of course enjoying a late night movie with them followed by photo takings with my cathay darlings =)

watched "The Coffin" just now. Karen mok is hot! haha. though the storyline was actually quite enticing, the way the director shot the film was actually quite confusing slow and couldnt convey the expressions well. You have to put in the extra effort to pay extra attention and analyse the story yourself. haha.

anyway as for the pictures, because HH didnt know how to use my phone about 80% of the photos we took we not saved!!!! like omg! all the nice photos not in =( but nevermind! shall take more when im back at work! haha.

its going on the the 4th week where im still sick! and my voice is till nt entirely back yet and my birthday is up soon! oh no. how!
i would like to take PN for my birthday gift! just wat i wanted! haha. running shorts! now all i need are proper shoes. lol.

next week is gonna be a busy week and tomorrow or actually later i need to chiong my AEROMA report. already loss 5% by missing prac on thurs due to overdose of medication. totally my fault.

anyways, when lich's computer is back from the hosp and when nadrah is feeling well again when i get the photos i shall post them online =)

take care!

-zach
is very happy with the time spent with the people today =)
is feeling satisfied with his life! haha.

still sick.

2008-10-26T02:27:00.003+08:00

ARGH!!!!!. I HATE THIS FREAKING COUGH.
cant sleep properly at all for nights now and my whole body is aching.
when will this stupid cough go away. im really getting irritated by it.
cant even lie down for a sec and the next cough comes. damn it.

-zach
is very very irritated now.

SICK SICK SICK!

2008-10-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

argh. hate these past few days. been sick sick sick!
my temp keeps gg up and down. goes up cause i never take panadol goes down cause i take panadol -.-
these are my temps that i took for the past 2 days.
38.5>37.9>37.7>37.2>36.9>36.4>38.1>38.3>38.6>37.7

with the latest one that i just took.
rawr. when am i gg to get well again! hate this feeling.

-zach
is tired.

hello hello

2008-10-19T02:34:00.002+08:00

crap. i pressed the wrong button and all my post was gone. anyway to summarize. having cough sore throat. wish happy birthday to all my friends. and all the best to those taking Os.

imeem screwed up.

-zach
is still coughing badly.

bllllllooooooooooogggg!

2008-10-10T01:42:00.002+08:00

hey all,

its been a rough few weeks but i survived! school is starting next mon. though i cant wait for it to start, i feel its gonna b real busy due to FYP. and with the new problems arising today more stress is here!

weeks been alright. interview for the exhibition went great but we are only secured a place if we can finish our project and achieve its aims. lord i really pray that you'll help!

hmm what i did today...
aaccopanied faith to forum there to study and teach her math. after that walked around forum since i've never been there before and faith was my tour guide. haha. FOC one. haha. after that she need to collect stuff from isetan so went there. had lunch there as well at the so called food court at the top floor. after that went down to school to meet the supposed fabricator for my proj. had a nice chit chat with him.

he was a very down to eart kinda guy and his reasons were really good. more people should be like him i wish. after took a bus home with faith. tried to take photos but she claims its mostly ugly so i dont im gonna bother to upload them. LOL.

ok ok its time for bed now. needa do FYP again tomorrow. there goes my off day o.0

goodnights peeps and take care of yourselves!
God Bless ^^

-zach
is feeling blessed with everything thats happening esp. for FYP.
is enjoying singlehood.
is enjoying his last couple of years here.

Second Chance by Faber Drive

2008-10-05T10:13:00.001+08:00

this here is a nicely written song and it rocks! lol.

Second chance by Faber Drive

I found the phone
I must’ve missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn’t what your friend said.
I can tell by your tone, I’ve taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don’t know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I’m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I’ve taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don’t know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I’m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.
There's so much I haven't given yet. (or theres so much i havent given you)
it seems so different with(out) a second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don’t know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I’m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place to get a second chance.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out? (second chance)
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down (second chance)
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask? (second chance)
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.

ouch.

2008-09-30T00:56:00.002+08:00

ouchies. my right eye feels like its been punched again.
must be from the straining of tryin to keep it open on the late nights.
i need a LIFE.
instead of cooping up in my room day in day out and just playing games or chatting with the few people that i chat with or watching tv shows which i got off the internet.
i need new goals new solutions to old problems and money.
i was just thinking how am I gonna survive with about $200 for the whole of oct.
ok i just found out i owe a lot of people money. lol. i really need to re manage my spending and take jowells advice. spend when you only need.
well anyways i tink that $200 roughly 3/4 of it going to go to bills and most prob the remaining to pay back people. speaking of which. the school still owes me $150! lol. for fyp. rawr. but that 150 also my dads. so sad.

I NEED TO WORK.
but i already agreed with my parents if they increased my allowance i would stop work till schs over. argh. if nt this whole hols i'd be making a few hundreds and that can certainly pay back my debts and still have some extra to get people gifts.
oh well. what can i do but just try to live on what i have.

ok things i need to stop next month.
MOVIES.
SPLURGING ON FOOD.

these are the 2 things i need to stop.
splurging on food has already decreased a lot like i've been only one meal a day on most days. so yeah. Faith already said i looked thinner. lol. this means i cant gain weight anymore. =(

sometimes i wished i was as well to do as some other peeps. but oh well. this was the life given to me so im just gonna take it like a man.

"After years of living, i realised that we can't compare our lives to one another. We all experience different events or courses, though we go through the same problem at times, it still different due to the course of actions that led up to it. We all were brought up differently. So don't complain, you dont know what another person might be facing. Just live life as you're either supposed to or choose your own paths." ------ Zachary Mark

this is something that I'd like to leave with the readers of my blog.

-zach
is going to sleep early now.

ditto.

2008-09-29T00:45:00.002+08:00

Ditto.
thats how i'd describe my past few days.
hmm. its been day in day out for me these few days and its been draining!
last night had a bad tummy ache till 4+ 5 in the morning.
then had to watke up at about 9 for cell. cause of the new leader. so yeah.
and now cell is every alt wed instead of the weekly tues. so im more free now i guess but next sem is study study study. last sem to try and get a 3 in my gpa so that for once my parents can keep quiet about my gpa.

today went for service almost fell asleep cause i was super tired. after that had lunch at Ah Seah with the usual gang. saw faith chat with her a lil. and jowells out of the army! woo. botak. lol. nt bad suits him. hope he's doing fine and that God will look after him whilst he's in camp. The stories he tells are just damn funny.

ok i know im thinking a bit too far now. but i wonder how would australia be like.
gonna leave singapore in like 2-3 years time and im still just rotting away. how am I going to make the memories last to keep me grounded when im there.
i wonder if my life would change or my personality. it seems that im becoming to have multiple personalities nowadays. like i could be angry and full of hate sometimes or just peace loving or irritated at anything or even quiet and just sitting on my bed doing nothing. and when im out im just an average joe.

well anyways. i've tot of some ways to use my time wisely for the next few years.
imma take up 4 instruments if i can i hope.
2 of which would be self learnt or from friends, of which are the guitar and piano.
Drums from my dads friend from my previous church. hope he'll teach me.
and lastly a flute. dont ask me why but i just gt a sudden interest for it.
but alas these are just dreams. with no action or not much motivation yet.

well tomorrow im going back to sch for FYP again. gonna make a new prototype using a diff method so its more precise in the dimensions and shape. hope this time it'll be able to fly.

anyways i'd also like to congratulate Adeline Ng and Marc Teo on their beautiful wedding on sat at the shang ri la. sorry that i dont have any pics but i hope to get the group one with them soon. its nice to know that people you havent met in ages till remember you. its like all my old friends were there, well almost all of 'em.

i just realise i love to live in my past. and sometimes i wish i could live for NOW instead. and sometimes i dont like to go to weddings who are closely related to me. they always ask me the SAME question. and thats so whens your turn? man. im only 19 this year. I cant even hold my relationships together let alone get married. and whats more i've to go through my parents. thats the final obstacle. and at the state that I'm in i doubt it'll be any time soon too. maybe i'll just try again either after uni or during uni. try wat? mingle with new people.

if i count the number of people i've known from my pri sch till now. it'd be almost 2000 but its like i only contact with around 400-500 plus now i think. or maybe even lesser cause i dont even talk to the people i used to hang out with in pri or sec sch.

i guess its time to sleep now. gotta get up early.
goodnights people of the world.

-zach
is drained.
is thinking of buying a Wii.
has a pair of travis barker sticks.
is looking for 2 songs: bizarre love triangle by frente and the kiss by faith hill.
is looking for an OST from the movie My best friends girl.
cant wait for episode 3 of heroes S3.

quiet oh so quiet

2008-09-27T02:36:00.002+08:00

yay! heroes is back! haha. the first 2 episodes was great. and now i've gt animax at home! whoopee.
but..
i still get the tv. lol. so cant watch much anyway.
my blog is suddenly so quiet. no one is tagging any more =(
everyday its been computer all day and i havent exercised in a long while. now im training myself after every match i play im going to do push ups. haha. to train my arms first. then after next week its sit ups.
and then next time im going to go running again.
i need to exercise.
oh ya. faith said i became thinner. dunno if its true but i've been tryin to gain weight to no avail. thats like so sad. :|
oh wells. its back to gaming. done my 20 already.

enjoy ur miserable lives people!
i will enjoy mine.

-zach
is jumping like a person 6 feet under.

2008-09-20T05:25:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i last posted.
man i got shitty results even after all that mugging. damn it.
my gpa for this sem and overall is almsot the same a 2.8. no matter how well i score i cant get a freaking 3 in my gpa. like wth man.
i havent been sleeping properly these few days either. my sleeping time has gone from2-3 to now 5-7. my body clock is gg haywire.
rawr. watched anastasia just nw. oh the memories.
too bad it was a true for what happened in the movie. lol.
anastasia wasnt the one who got away. it was the second sis. haha.
romanov: the last russian emperial family had the most tragic ending i've ever known. and some how it changes me a lil.
anyway was watching house just now and i'd like to quote this.
" Only when you open up yourself then will you get to see a different view in life."

well it was something like that. lol.
but the main points is more or less there already.

anyways my grandma is gg for an op soon pray that she'll be fine.
ok its time for bed.

-zach
is feeling weird inside.
is trying so hard but cant succeed.
recieved his NS medical checkup letter.
hopes to find somebody something or somewhere he can find peace and rest in.

2008-09-15T04:16:00.001+08:00

ahh... i feeeeeel much better.

火柴天堂- 熊天平

2008-09-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

走在寒冷下雪的夜空
zou zai han leng xia xue de ye kong

卖着火柴温饱我的梦
mai zhe huo chai wen bao wo de meng

一步步冰冻一步步寂寞
yi bu bu bing dong yi bu bu ji mo

人情寒冷冰冻我的手
ren qing han leng bing dong wo de shou

一包火柴燃烧我的心
yi bao huo chai ran shao wo de xin

寒冷夜里挡不住前行
han leng ye li dang bu zhu qian xing

风刺我的脸雪割我的口
feng ci wo de lian xue ge wo de kou

拖着脚步还能走多久
tuo zhe jiao bu hai neng zou duo jiu

有谁来买我的火柴
you shui lai mai wo de huo chai

有谁将一根根希望全部点燃
you shui jiang yi gen gen xi wang quan bu dian ran

有谁来买我的孤单
you shui lai mai wo de gu dan

有谁来实现我想家的呼唤
you shui lai shi xian wo xiang jia de hu huan

每次点燃火柴微微光芒
mei ci dian ran huo chai wei wei guang mang

看到希望看到梦想
kan dao xi wang kan dao meng xiang

看见天上的妈妈说话
kan jian tian shang de ma ma shuo hua

她说你要勇敢你要坚强
ta shuo ni yao yong gan ni yao jian qiang

不要害怕不要慌张
bu yao hai pa bu yao huang zhang

让你从此不必再流浪
rang ni cong ci bu bi zai liu lang

妈妈牵着你的手回家
ma ma qian zhe ni de shou hui jia

睡在温暖花开的天堂
shui zai wen nuan hua kai de

天堂
tian tang

天堂......
tian tang

Pissed off.

2008-09-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Man i feel damn pissed off right now. damn dota. feel like strangling the team at times. and when u ask people to shut the hell up they just dont freaking listen. as a result i kicked the effing person out of the game.
argh. just feel so irritated right now. sometimes i wonder why i feel this way.
i think if i ever get really angry with somebody that person would literally be killed by me.

i seem to have lost all sense of controlling my anger whenever im home any more.
my tolerance lvl has dropped to a lvl whereby i can just scold anything that you know under the sun.

and whats more pastor kay leong was preaching about how we use our tongues and here I am cursing away. damn it damn it damn it.
effing pissed. why why why?

RAWR.
changed my blogskin. suites what im feeling now.
yes there are lots of untold secrets in me. all bottled up.
and with no effing person to share with.
cause people come and go.
and im the next.

so i'll just freaking shut up now and go do whatever i can find to do.

-zach
is feeling very irritated
is having Men's PMS.

Thunder

2008-09-10T03:04:00.002+08:00

good morning world =)
todays cell was kinda hard hitting on me. well firstly we were talking about james chap 2 which talked about the 3 different kinds of faith we christians have, which are dead faith, demonic faith and cant remember the last one. lol but its gotta do with something about being active. glenn was emphasizing to us why was faith present in our era and nt in the old testament. the main reasoning was because in the old testament God guided the people by a pillar of cloud or fire. and the people were afraid of our God and so in the new testament, God used faith to bring us closer to him. i know im being brief here but if you want to know more you could always ask me and i'll try to explain my best to you =)

anyways carrying on away from the word. later glenn had a prayer session on who wanted to be on fire for God. has anyone ever wondered what it means to be on fire?
well i did today. and glenn explained it to us. he was using an illustration to explain it to us.

heres his illustration:

usually when buildings are on fire besides fire engines and stuff you'd see people gathering round. and this would be the same for God's people when their on fire. if we want to bless and for people to notice us. we need to be on fire!

and so he had a prayer for those who wanted to be on fire for God. and he was doing a prophetic prayer and he just read through my problems and started praying for them. and i'd like to thank God for today and the past week for every thing he has done.

anyways, i do pray and hope that my doubts and confusion would clear soon. I dont know whats the next move i should take. but well i'd just like to let all the people that even though i dont msg or keep in contact with you often any more. I still treat you people as close to me as i ever could.

i guess time will tell whether i should ever make the next move. in the mean time i'll just continue praying!

Thanks be to God.

-zach
is going to bed now.
slept a hell lot today.
is just following the small voice in him and hope he overcomes his obstacles.
is waiting for 18th sept.

AVRIL!

2008-09-08T13:43:00.004+08:00

hey peeps!
guess what? i went to avrils concert last night! haha. thnx to mon mon whose aunt gave him two tix then he cant go so he gave me =D. its was great her voice was really really good! haha. one of the best concerts ive been to. anyways i'll let the pictues do the talking =)

me and selwyn!

Opening act stage

during one of the acts.

Look at her pink piano! lol.

im nt sure if you can see but her mic was pink!

one of the highlights of the show. above the ladies point arm you can see someone sleeping. lol. i dunno how. but she WAS SLEEPING!

Closing Act.

-zach
enjoyed the concert =D

Faith.

2008-09-03T01:39:00.003+08:00

What is faith?
technically its believing in something that you dont even know about.
but what is it really to you?
This struck me a few times already.
Its been a while since i did a faith check.

Do you believe in things you want to believe anymore?

I was a Faith Kid.
what am I now?

what am I suppose to reflect about faith?
why does the word just keep popping in my head these days?
what is it trying to tell me?

-zach
is scratching his head in blankness.
is listening to boston.
is downloading witchblade.
wants to do things that he hasnt done in a long time.

Pictues!

2008-09-02T05:19:00.002+08:00

Heres some photos as promised =)
randomly picked. lol.

holiday sianess!

2008-09-02T05:09:00.002+08:00

lol. its 5am and im nt sleeping. no im nt emo. haha. its the holiday sianess!!! haha.
anyways. just felt like posting these lyrics.
the song is We are the Reason by Avalon. this song means a lot to me. and I'd like to just post it here.

We Are The Reason
Avalon

As little children,
we would dream of Christmas Morn'
Of all the gifts and toys
we'd knew we find.
But we never realise,
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift
of our lives.

Chorus:
We were the reason
That he gave his life.
We were the reason
that he suffered and died.
To a world that was lost
He gave all he could give
to show us the reason to live.

As the years went by,
we learnt more about gifts.
The giving of ourselves
and what that means.
On a dark and cloudy day,
a man hung crying in the rain.
All because of love..
All because of Love.

And we were the reason
that He gave his life.
We were the reason that
He suffered and died.
To a world that was lost
He gave all he could give
to show us the reason to live.

I finally found a reason for living
Its in giving every part
of my heart to Him.
And all that I do,
every word that I say,
I'll be giving my all just for Him..
For Him..
For Him.

And we are the reason
that He gave his life.
We were the reason that
He suffered and died.
To a world that was lost
He gave all he could give
to show us the reason to live.

He is our reason to live

Bridge:
(haha. cant remember this part)

-zach
is feeling so darn nostalgic.

NIKE HUMAN RACE!

2008-08-31T23:43:00.003+08:00

hey all!

haha. today has been a great day! lol. had the nike human race today and man was it packed. 11000 people!but the race was quite screwed up in the admin logistics and route planning but the concert was nice. lol. Boys like Girls totally rocked the place away. and the best thing was. THEY WERE THROWING IPOD NANOS! too bad didnt get any. lol.

ok enough typing and i'll just let the pics do the talking. haha.

cherrio!

(NOTE! SOME PICTURES ARE BLUR BUT THEY LOOK GOOD SO IM JUST GONNA POST IT HERE. LOL)actually forget it! lol. i tried uploading but keep saying failed! pek chek. i'll try upload them ASAP cause gt a total of 78. lol.

SORRY PEEPS! aiya if u wan can ask me =D

-zach
legs are hurting.

ITS SUNDAY! technically.

2008-08-31T00:20:00.003+08:00

hey all!
its sunday! lol. in less than 24 hrs is the human race! u all better be cheering ar. lol. anyways this week has been a good week. why?
cause its the last week of exams! lol. thurs went out with classmates to celebrate. i'll post the pictures below =D ( someone cannot complain i never put pic liao =D)

ok.

events coming up:
1. FYP!!!
2. Public Nuisance OUTING!!! and im planning it. lol.
3. FYP!! AGAIN. lol.
4. OUTING with SOMEONE who needs to take out braces. haha.

ok. my Birth mom just msned me on fri and asked me what i wanted for my birthday.
now i need help. cause i dont know what i want and i need to let her know by NEXT WEEK!. jia lat. how how how?

there are my wants but its nt reasonable. lol. my wants should be bought by myself. and they are quite costly as well. so im not going to ask for ridiculous priced stuff.
PEOPLE HELP ME THINK OF THINGS CHEAPER THAN $50 =D.

ok below would be the photos of thursdays outing with my classmates.
ENJOY!

heres me at Eskibar with the bottle of Ciroc. some vodka brand. its a nice bottle though.

look how nice the bottle is..

me and kel kel. it was suppose to be me and long long. but.. lol. he gt cut out when kel jumped in to the photo.

now me and long long. lol.

GROUP PHOTO!!! poor thing long not inside.

The KTV pics arent in my comp so i cant upload. dont fret! i'll put them in soon

signing off ~

-zach
is eager for the run.
is thinking of something/one/people/animal.
is scratching his head on what he wants for his b'dae.

EXAMS ARE OVER!

2008-08-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

YIPEE KAYAY!
the exam period is finally over! hah. todays paper was squite easy. completed it in 15 mins. wanted to leave the hall but kena ask to sit down cause too fast. lol.
well this sunday is the human race! cant wait for it. and listen to the awesome local bands that are going to play. haha. and of course boys like girls =D

its been some time since i blogged but i dont know what to blog. lol.
tomorrow going to sing K with my classmates as a celebration. after that dinner, then im going home whilst they are most prob going to pub.

next week onwards the time i have is mostly for FYP. need to complete it before school start. the presentation date is getting nearer. so darn scary.

okays. im going to sign off here. lol.
im really drawing a blank today.
dunno too happy cause exam over or wat. haha.

anyways. just to note. TEACHERS DAY IS COMING! but i aint gg back to sec sch cause they always bar us from gg in. so dont bother already.

TAKE CARE ALL!!!!!

-zach
is drawing a blank on updating today.

2008-08-20T02:45:00.002+08:00

Hello Oh So Cruel Yet Kind World.
ok after about 2 hrs of thinking i finally remembered what i wanted to blog about. =x
I just wanted to blog about todays cell.
well it was talking about galations chapter 5 and 6.
Walking in the spirit and i cant remember the other title. lol.
anyway, what really hit me today was how chapter 6 really related to my past.
The regretful things I did and how I overcame it.

There was something dark i wanted to share. but.. something was stopping me. cause my situation was really appropriate to the topic he was covering and i could be an example. but i just couldnt find the right time to say it. so oh well.
my skin itch is starting to come back again.
must be cause i'm feelin really stressed now.
not about exams but about other stuff.

:(

ok its almost 3 and im going to go off to bed now. gonna spend tomorrow studying mech and a bit of OM.
take care peeps!

oh yeah. yest i almost kena run down by car today ms rabbit kena bitten by dog. lol. hope her wounds alright.

GOODNIGHTS!

-zach
needs medication again.
thinks he inherited his grandma's sickness.
is becoming emo as each day pasts.
is waiting for exams to be over.

EXAMSSSSS!!!

2008-08-19T01:19:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!
its the exams! and omg my first paper in less than 8 hours. haha.
well im like so called prepared for it la. i mean i studied but i dont think i really studied well. but i hope what i studied will come out for exams.lol.
this time exams like so rush. and so much to study. like gt tips for systems. haha. which is tomorrows paper.

I'm having this feeling inside of me that i know i shouldnt have cause even though i really want to be it, im not it and im treating myself as it already. How am I gonna get rid of this feeling?
I know the "it" 's are irritating but its a sub word for something. haha. happy guessin!

anyways. almost kena bang by car today. stupid driver. make me angry no mood study only. i kick his boot then he know. lucky i never take down no. if nt i buy 4D win 1st prize then u know.

anyways. all the best for all ur papers ok?
jia you jia you!
God bless all!

-zach
is going to read my notes one last time and then go to SLEEEEEEEEEP!

2008-08-18T01:52:00.002+08:00

"I could sing of your love forever.."

as that line lingers in my sleep, yes lord i can sing of your love forever.

Goodnight everyone. Its time to head to bed early to rise and shine tomorrow.
Thank God for everything he's prepared for us and for another day in this world of his.

-zach
is going to bed early!

leader of the band by Dan Fogelberg.

2008-08-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

An only child
Alone and wild
A cabinet maker's son
His hands were meant
For different work
And his heart was known
To none --
He left his home
And went his lone
And solitary way
And he gave to me
A gift I know I never
can repay

A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldn't wait
He earned his love
Through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

My brothers' lives were
different
For they heard another call
One went to Chicago
And the other to St. Paul
And I'm in Colorado
When I'm not in some hotel
Living out this life I've chose
And come to know so well.

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go --
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, pap, I don't think I
Said 'I love you' near enough --

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.

2008-08-17T05:31:00.001+08:00

In reponse to your blogs entry last year.

Since you've been gone,
the world wasnt the same.
Being left behind felt painful,
but it was the right thing to do.
I thank you for giving me a chance before,
but now its time to look fore.
Time doesnt stop for anyone and
you figured that out long before i could.

-zach
really going to sleep now.

sleepless in seattle. NOT. its in singapore la dey

2008-08-17T05:07:00.004+08:00

its 5 am. and i thought of something to say.
It may sound emo, but heck it.

"God given feelings and things are really the best. cause you will never achieve it with your own strength. No matter how much you want that feeling or thing again, you'll never get it back. So dont lose something given to you by God, treasure it. Dont make the mistake I made, I had to learn it the hard way."

In memory of a cow who moo-ed the entire night away.
After all these months to think that I've actually moved on.
But now, for certain, I've really moved on.
You were the best part of me but now you're just like the rest.
A friend by my side, and nothing more.
Just like a message you sent i think 2 years ago:
"Even after we've grown old with wrinkled skin, false teeth and lots of white hair, i do hope we would still remember each other as friends for life."

M- Mark and Moo
B-Banana Boy and Bird
D-Dwight
J-Japheth and Jowell
Basic 7 of Arummugamuthuparapap.

I still remember what you told me when we were looking at this picture.

*listening to Lips of an Angel by Hinder*

Goodnight World.

2008-08-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

oh yeah. kel just sent this pic to me recently
this was taken by me with his phone when we were at vivocity.

2008-08-17T01:04:00.003+08:00

*update update*
hey all! haha congrats to singapore beating south korea in table tennis. finals tmr. jia you and trash china! haha. anyways i aint gonna rant on about the olympics you wan to see go see nt interested. lol.

anyways shall start from fri. had APP test 2 on that day. well im lucky that i picked the correct coloured paper haha. cause the other coloured paper was super difficult to do. but the mcq for both paper was a killer la. can do until die. dunno will pass anot this time. hope so =D after that stayed in sch watch SG play against S,Korea for table tennis then met jap at my workplace starbucks to study cause Mac cant study on weekends.

while studying we decided to watch the 9.20 MEET DAVE! lol. funny show but watch once enough. so so storyline. my advice if u want to watch it dont expect too much. just expect the funny facial expression of eddie murphy. it'll really make you laugh ur socks off.
oh oh! and i saw tiffany and clarrisa there as well. haha. so coincidental. they also there to study. then later i talkin with my manager halfway i gt pounced on by 2 crazy girls whose picture i'll put below. haha. Aida( my manager ) kena big shock. lol. then we continued to gossip about EVELYN! the operations manager of my workplace. lol.

today has been a so so day. as usual i'll sleep the whole afternoon away so i didnt study at all. wonder how my next week exams gonna be sia. tuesday first paper. AIRCRAFT SYSTEMS! scary. tomorrow gonna go to main church after service to mug.
I wish those people having exams ALL THE BEST! and hope you'll do well =)

Quote of the day:
"Music is the key to open the heart to see God"
taken from, Sonic Flood's entrance before the song open the eyes of my heart.
great speech

ok here are the photos :
the girls invovled are kamiliya and Fathin =)

They heart me like their boyfrens. lol. aint that sweet?

kamiliya with her pig face. lol.

Thanks to Safwan for helping us take the photos. =)

-zach
is getting headaches again,
is so not prepared for the exams,
not prepared for the Nike+ run,
is thinking too much again.

study study study

2008-08-14T04:01:00.004+08:00

eloz. i know i know its late again. but hey gt reason today ok!
haha. was out studying till like 2 then reach home 2.30. =D then was playing game till now =x. needed to de-stress myself. welll today lab kinda screwed but nvm. haha. slept in the afternoon then yu long(dave) haha. and mon mon came over to swim.
these few days have been really tiring. its like study study study! thats all i've probably been doing. but hey. its for my own good. and this is the first time im actually following a schedule ive planned 2 weeks before. HA!
im so proud of myself =D and i'd like to thank God for it. haha. been praying every night to give me the energy and attention span when im really studying.

well im uploading some photos below that were taken on monday at vivo after studying in sch and today during swimmming =)

=D im a terrorist! i kill you! and no im sorry i dont "Anwar" =P

For Ms Rabbit. haha. was bored waiting for mon and long to get out of the pool.

yu long long aka dave. brother of davin =D

my house swimming pool

xiong and yijin the china man.

we were bored. lol.

the cyclops long!

YJ and mon mon.

my condo's small pool.

and the final picture for today. MON MON!!

-zach
is going to sleep now.
is going to study from 10am to at least 11pm later. since its already thursday.
is waiting for the exams to be over.

3rd day.

2008-08-11T06:22:00.002+08:00

its my third day sleeping in the wee hours in the morning and i need to wake up in 3 hrs time. time to sleep.

2008-08-10T05:02:00.000+08:00

Its yet another sleepless night.
5:05am.

its 4am.

2008-08-08T04:24:00.002+08:00

man its like 4+ close to 5 and im still here. awake.
what up with me. why cant i slp today.... its like my ftt is in less than 8 hrs and im still nt slping. my body is still aching from yesterday's poly 50. couldnt walk properly today. tomorrow gonna force myself to walk normally.

im still awake! and i dont feel sleepy. period. tomorrow i gt a bloody full day of studying and yet i still dont wanna sleep? i must be crazy. i need medication! i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed something to do. lol.

(currently listening to lips of an angel by hinder)

"honey why you calling me.. so late,
its kinda hard to talk right now.
honey why you call is everything ok?
i gotta whisper cause i cant be too loud.
well my girl's is in the next room
sometimes i wish it was you.
i guess we never really moved on."

*NOTE: no hidden meaning for those who think that i type songs out cause there are meanins in them.*

ok im feeeeling slightly sleepy now. haha.
today planned my next few weeks until the end of the exam and i've still yet to plan my finance. and i need to start it next month. during the hols is the best time to plan. but its also the best time to spend =x.

COMING FROM THE LIPS OF AN ANGEL
HEARING THOSE WORDS
IT MAKES ME WEAK!

lol. that was random =P
ok the next song would be...

4am! by the lost prophets. haha. suits the time now.
me still waiting for the photos from poly 50. forgot to ask clarissa or tiffany just nw.

okay la. i think its time to force myself to sleep.
gonna slap myself in the wall and hope i knock out.

-zach
is wondering how he'll do for the exams.
hopes he can save enough by next year to go HK and visit his relatives.
hopes he complete all his assignments by monday.
prays he will pass his FTT in a few hours time.
is running after himself.
is back to listening lips of an angel and singing to himself emo-ingly.

Im backie

2008-08-07T01:34:00.006+08:00

Hey peeps,
im back! haha.cant remember when was the last time i blogged. so im just gonna start with what happened on monday. =D
went to sch EARLY in the morning for stupid GEMS test. haha. ITS FINALLY OVER! and now mondays can slp more =D but cant. cause its 2 weeks to exam. so scared sia. like suddenly so many things to do.
after sch went to take etrial for FTT. was kinda easy but i think for real one they will make it tougher a bit. hope a bit only *cross my fingers and pray*. haha. after that met jap and rushed down to cine to watch MONEY NO ENOUGH 2!! with xiao bai tu, stoner trisa and si qi. joel pang seh us. though technically he didnt but im gonna keep it that way. haha. after the movie paolo called ask me if i could replace him for Poly 50 on wed cause his knee was injured. so i said ok lor(but then kena cheated-will explain later).
tuesday... nothing much. only that i woke up like 1+ did app lab reports and then went to sch at like 3 cause i only had 1 lesson that day and it was 4pm. haha. and it ended at 5 -.- after that went for cell touched on wat happened last sunday. which i didnt attend cause i overslept. dunno why these few months been oversleeping a lot. and i learned something new. =D
Tansgressions= Knowing that it is against God but still doing it.
Sin=Does not know that it is against God.
And thats why it was started in Galations that we are actually freed from the Law and that Jesus died for our SINS and TRANSGRESSIONS.
yeah. i tink this was the juice of that evening. haha.
today, woke up at 6. dad was using toilet. so i went back to slp. haha. guess wat. overslept AGAIN! this is getting out of hand sia. i woke up at like 10! and i msged mon mon where was he. haha. he was still at home. leavin soon. so i quickly washed up and left the house. when i reached mrt station ask him where he was. he say he still waiting for bus -.- SO SLOW! haha. but its nt his fault(or so he says =D) haha. its the BUS FAULT! for coming so late. almost completed my music box today. but had some minor problems that i'll solve on fri. met Xiao Bai Tu for lunch. suppose to have her braces taken out today. but dentist said that still gt gap so need wait till end of next month.
* DONT WORRY! haha. Its just one more month jia you! *
after lunch went back to sch for the poly 50. and this was the first time i actually sprint for such a long period of time. man its really really tiring. but after the run suddenly gt energy run again. hahahha. must be some crazy guy. after that went down to serangoon macs to meet jap and sel. was suppose to study but we just watched jap study. haha. cause i rushed out of house today never bring any notes. so damn sad. but nvm. took it as rest time for me! haha.

the exams are almost here and the holidays too! cant wait sia. then can start learning how to drive IF and i mean IF i pass my FTT this friday. poor jap. no yuan fen to take his FTT sia. etrial and actually thing both last min gt thing pop up.
then nw he need to bk again.

okay now for paolos thing. earlier on i said he ask me to take over him cause he couldnt run due to knee injury. but guess wat.
HE RAN FOR ANOTHER TEAM. cause his Gf told him to. well. im nt blaming him to be giving in to the GF but then he shouldnt have told me his knee injured. rawr. whats more he knee injured can run faster than me. so its either im slow or his knee is nt even injured. anyway. we came in 52nd. lol out of 100+ teams. paolo's group like came in much much much later. serves him right. =P

anyways. i've written quite a bit today and you peeps must be bored reading my daily stuff day after day. so im gonna post a pic of Xiao Bai Tu. haha. "secretly" taken whilst on the bus back to sch.

its time for me to sign off. hope you'll have an enjoyable week and dont forget to TAG!!!!!!

-zach
does not know what is he feeling now. haha.

2008-08-01T03:01:00.014+08:00

hey peeps.
its been a beeeeeee-sy week. haha. so tired these few days. lets take it as yest was wed k? cause its suppose to be fri morn now. so yest was the relaxation day. haha. morning reached sch did avionics assignment. the music box. after that was suppose to have an fyp meeting with kelvin. but for some reason he didnt turn up. Adi and I waited there for a bout 20 mins then left. haha. Adi had driving and i had er.. badminton? lol. went to meet gary and fairus to play badminton. and the result of that is that im aching all over. after that had lunch and headed down to china town for singing K. haha. had a fun time there especially with yu long getting gang raped by 2 heavy weights in the room: xiong and gary. gt to know a few new songs.

after that went to the nearby food place to eat. spent about 30 bucks there on drnks and food. haha. had bbq stingray, chili sotong a bowl of lotus root soup and SUGARCANE! haha. yeah. so that day alone speent about 50 inclusive of K dinner and lunch. then spent another 50 paying back peeps =x so im like left with 20 for the week. or till my allowance comes in. haha.

after dinner went to clarke quay to sit on the bridge and took some photos. after that went home chatted a while then went to bed. was super duper tired. today woke up at 6.30 but decided to go back to slp. haha. was too tired to get up, after that every 30 mins my alarm kept ringing but i couldnt be bothered. 9.30 clement called. haha. mech lect like start 30 mins ago. =x well. he was still at home too. haha. after that call i went back to slp with no more alarms! woke up at like 3pm. haha. 15 hrs of slp. msned a while and ate biscuits for lunch. stayed up awhile sneezing till my nose turned extremely red-can take over kians place as rudolph already. so feeling tired and sick. laid down on bed and SLEPT again. haha. really drained. and muscles aching everywhere.

at night had dinner. then went to macs to meet jap to study. till like bout 11.15 then came home. chat a while then when people went to slp. went to play game. was reading for FTT before that as well. mondays the Etrial. hope can do well.

now here i am updating and then gonna prepare to slp. needa wake up in 3 hrs time. wats more tomorrow im working again. so called last day of work. sad. but i'll continue again next year. haha. after sch ends. but then i'll be going to australia for a few months i tink. and then hope to go HK wit jap if i can before i go NS.

exams are in 2 weeks. like omg. so scary. havent really prepared for any yet. so many things to do.

anyways. posting the photos below. then im off to bed!

-zach
is as busy as a bee
understands if what he wants is not what he usually will get.
understands if what is not for him will never be his.
understands that waiting is never easy.
understands that to change is difficult if you dont have any motivation.
knows that emo-ing is nt the way to get something.

The mickey in me?

Done by kel and mon mon..

the 4 bottles that i drank. NOT. haha. 1 bottle was mine.

YuLong in the middle of kel and gary.

Kel and the fierce looking mon mon.

Vampire of the night!

My Sis, cousins and me from HK trip last year.

me and da jie. ugly hair! haha. forgot to cut before going HK.

mon mon and kel at my birthday last year.

Selwyn and Jap at my birthday last year.

My Dads Vodka Disco.

Hope u enjoyed the photos!

2008-07-29T00:28:00.014+08:00

Okays today i shall post some pictures but without captions. im too tired and gonna sleep after the uploads. hope their sizes are alright =D.

SUCCESS!

2008-07-28T00:20:00.002+08:00

hello people.
today is a good day. haha.0 besides ms rabbit being sick everything seems to be fine. booked my FTT on the 08/08/08. lol auspicious date i hope. same day as the first day of OLYMPICS! haha. imagine my FTT ebing one of the sports and me going to go for GOLD! haha. ok im crapping. my etrial on the monday before the friday. me and jap both same day but different timing cause slot only gt 1. so have to take timings one after another. but oh heck same day. lol.

anyways brenda helped me and jap top up our accounts so THNX BRENDA!. =D and helped jap and i to book our etrail too. haha. and she even introduced a website to help us on the FTT www.sgdriving.net haha. did the questions had some mistakes but realised the questions seemed easier than BTT.

anyway. stopped the SINFUL thing i've been doing these few days. =D so too bad clement dont tink u'll guess wat it is. =D

i vowed to sleep early starting from this week and im going to keep my word. I am going to try my best and follow my schedule that i've planned and going to plan. especially financially. so gambatte to me.

its almost time for sleeeeeeeep. so i really need to sign off soon. these few days of dota-ing kinda boring cause kept losing and every time start losing joel say no mood play. so dont play lor. lol. also good for me. sleep early! if nt need pei him play. though sometimes is i ask de. haha. =x

anyway tried to download HSM 3 but after completing asks me to install some new video driver which obviously im not going to do. so im just gonna wait since realease date worldwide is in oct anyways. so im guessing its a fake one.

OKAY! wed i getting pay wed i use finish. sure one. go out with classmates. pay back to YJ for the food. ya-da ya-da ya-da. lol. and paying for my BUS RIDES!. ok tues im nt going for supper after cell. =D cause im totally my pocket i tink no more le. hole too big. lol.

so im ending off here peeps.
SRY NO PICTURE AGAIN PEOPLE!!! SOON SOON WILL HAVE PHOTOS!!!
I PROMISE!

-zach
is back to normal.

3 straight days,

2008-07-25T01:58:00.002+08:00

hey world.
its been studying studying studying these 3 weeks. really stressing me out!. lol first time i every studied so much. somemore studying nt for exam. study for test. which wont be tested for exam. its both good and bad la. lesser to study for exam but like waste time. lol.

its been 3 straight nights doing something that i usually dont do. Am I getting addicted to it? everytime i see something it just stirs up the emotions. I do hope to stop it soon. Im guessin i wont be doing it tomorrow night cause i'll be like too tired. gonna be a full full day tomorrow. 8am class then end work at 1am. by the time home already 2+ so yeah. too tired.

man. i feel tired. just did it actually. lol. thats why i said 3 straight days!
and by next wed i do hope i've planned out my whole august. both financially and for studying. gonna be a tiring month. even after exams not much rest. gt FYP to do. nevermind. just 8 months more!. and about a year moer before NS.

but as time passes so fast, im gonna miss this place..people who know i do hope can meet up before going to ns and spend some time together. photos. yeah. before im gone.

so since im like drained now. i shall sign off here and do hope that i'll do well for my test assignments and exam. oh yeah and i gt a warning letter for GEMS attendance. lol. so do hope i can wake up for the next few mondays. lol.

2008-07-24T01:43:00.003+08:00

"Country road.. take me home..
to the place.. where i belong.."

if there were every a road like country road, i wish i was taking it now.
i need you like i never did before.
everything i put before you now, take and lift them off my shoulders.
i wish to be set free from these things that i've done with my own hands and just live life the way i was supposed to be; Alone.

drained.

2008-07-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

hey all., yawns. i feel so damn drained.
well lets recap the events of this week so far..
mon nothing much happened except went out studying with classmates at potong pasirs mac.
Tues had my BTT and i passed( second time taking ). had cell at night. realised my bible was left at glenns place. talked about galations 2 and how its related to galations 1. came home. gamed a while. chatted a while. did something sinful for a while.
today. woke up at 6.30. gt ready for sch. sat on bed. fell asleep till 10. so missed my prac in the morn. test at 3.30. so went back to sleep. woke up at 12. studied till 1.30 ate lunch. and went off to sch. Systems test was partially screwed up, everyone tot so too. so all of us went to eat at some steamboat place at farrer park, forgot the name. some china-people-runned place. food was delicious. first time ever enjoyed steamboat like fully. had a MAN talk with the guys.
after that went to punggol park with them sat and drank.
sat there and continued to talk about MAN stuff. first time we all so open about our more private lives. so yeah. sat there for 2 hrs chatting. everyone wanted to destress from the tests. fri gt another one. sian. till the 27 of aug. gt test almsot every week and so many assignments to hand in. gonna feel totally drained. man after 31st aug ar. i tell u WOOO! can rest. after that FYP. sianded.

Something I'd like to quote from a movie
"Usually the quietest person in the group is usually the most perverted one."
and i partially agree to this.

Im like back to stonning again. worrying about stuff that i need not worry. doing stuff that i should not do.
still in the process of changing certain stuff about me. so yeah. hope its for the better.

-zach.....
is feeling so damn dead.

BTT

2008-07-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

my BTT is tomorrow. hope i pass. if fail again damn malu nia. 2 times. so sad.
exams are coming. tests. assignments due. fyp. no work. no increment of allowance.
havent started planning. aint doing anything right these few days..

from Aug onwards. needa change how i spend already. gotta pay back a few people money!. n im overspending. so no more movies on sundays for me. no more going out for suppers unless for cell. no more going to fancy places to eat with classmates any more. its save save save! and stop spending.

and im planning to eat the same meal for lunch in sch everyday! haha. chicken cutlet rice or the muslim stall chciken rendang. delicious and cheap food.

do that for a few months. and i can start saving again.!
then hope by next year can save enough to go overseas.
i need to change my attitude. im too........ slacky and like cant do anything.
i feel so useless. i need to start cleaning my room. help out around the house,
play with my dog more often..

-zach
is signing off.
is going to play one round of dota.

update time!

2008-07-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

well, its update time again peoples!

today kinda missed sch cause i overslept =x
so woke up at like about 11 i think. previous night had a massive stomache ache while playing dota with joel. haha. dunno why. then so pain till i fell asleep on table. =P then lights on everything on. in the end still win the game. haha. and before i slept i saw xiaobaitu online. i wake up xiaobaitu still online. haha. as if like she didnt sleep at all.

anyway. woke up feeling super drained. dunno for wat reason. maybe cause take all my energy to get rid of stomachache. =? anyways. after that went to dhoby.
first to my workplace to print a piece of paper like receipt like that to pay for the Nike + run which i signed up tgt with my classmates and jap. 10km run. gonna be the longest run i ever ran. lol. hope i can make it. after paying. went back to my workplace to watch wedding daze alone. actually i saw some colleagues but nvm. gt people sitting next to them so i didnt bother. so watched the movie ALONE. the movie was quite funny la. haha. i dont mind watching it again. but it was very short. simple storyline.

after the movie came home. played wahjong first. after dinner dota-ed till about maybe 15 mins ago? i seriously need to find something else to do. my whole room is in a mess cause i've been mugging these few weeks so my books are every where. especially on my bed. lol. speaking of which i slept on them yest after i woke up at like 6+am to move to my bed.

gonna work from 11-11 tomorrow. well thats the rough timing. planned is 12-10
but its gonna be 11-11 more or less. big gala event for dark knight organised by J.P. Morgan. was talking about that company to clement the day before. haha.

and so, now im back on my comp reflecting about how much time i've wasted away.
in total of this week. i estimate i've maybe wasted about 90% of the time away, either stoning sleeping playing games and emo-ing around.

and dont ask me why im emo-ing. cause im not too sure myself.
im more or less sure but im still nt gonna say why. lol.
so dont pester me to tell u!

*currently listening to cold as you by taylor swift(<-----PRETTY!!!)*

my mind seems blank now. kinda erased everything thats happened already.
and just typing what i feel like typing. cause im drawn at a blank.
so im going to sign off now.

-zach
has an empty head.

This is Who I Am Now

2008-07-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

This is Who I Am Now.

its time for a little reflection on how much i've changed since dunno whenever.

1. I'm losing my ability to tolerate people.
2. I'm starting to forget the principles that i promised myself.
3. I've lost my sense of self control over certain stuff.
4. I've become ignorant.
5. I've become someone that i used to wish that I'd not be but I'm still trying to change back to who i was and wanted to be.
6. I've lost something important to me.(well... its suppose to be important.)
7. I sometimes dont know who my REAL friends are anymore too.
8. Lost track of the people he once knew that really meant something to him.
9. I'm still a dreamer of bigger things but no motivation to do anything.
10. Sleep and music is the only form of relaxation i have left. ( Church used to be in it)

Things that havent changed in me

1. Im still lazy.
2. I still dislike eating Eggs, bittergourd, brinjol and the usual stuff that most people know.
3. I'm still a sweet tooth.
4. I'm still a hypocrite in certain ways.
5. I'm still straight.
6. I'm still wishing for that empty space in me to be filled.
7. I'm still a God lover.
8. I'm still a person who hides his true nature.
9. I'm still the person who lives in the pass and doesnt worry about too much about the future and most of the time dislikes the present.( traditional? )
10. I'm still the guy who always screws things up.

-zach
is alright people.
is just... himself.

2008-07-16T01:51:00.004+08:00

-zach
is just feeling the way he always feels when he's up late at night, alone and thinking that he just wasted his life away.

2008-07-16T01:51:00.001+08:00

-zach
has lost his mind.

2008-07-16T01:49:00.003+08:00

-zach
feels angry,frustated,disappointed,emotional and stoned.

2008-07-16T01:49:00.001+08:00

-zach
is bored of his life.

2008-07-16T01:48:00.002+08:00

-zach
feels tempted to do a lot of stuff.

2008-07-16T01:48:00.001+08:00

-zach
feels like doing something that he isnt suppose to do.

2008-07-16T01:45:00.001+08:00

-zach
feels like jumping out of his window.

Who Am I?

2008-07-16T01:34:00.002+08:00

Verse 1:
Who am I that the Lord of all the Earth
would care to know my name,
would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I that the bright and morning star,
would choose the light the way,
for my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
but because of what you've done.
Not because of what I'v done,
but because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
a vapour in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling.
I am yours, I am yours.

Verse 2:
Who am I that the eyes that see our skin,
would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again.
Who am I that the voice that calmed the sea,
would call our through the rain
and calm the storm in me.

Bridge & Chorus x2

Whom shall I fear?
whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.

Sorry

2008-07-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

-zach
feels incompetent.

Sunday is gone once again..

2008-07-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps,

its passed midnight and the monday blues start to kick in.
anyways. few things to blog about. first i'll blog about my aunts then wat happened in church and the the photos i promised to upload( only gt a few, dont wan ma fan xiao bai tu to resize the rest =P ).

ok first my aunts, wats so interesting?
well a lot happened on sat.
I've gt 2 aunts i call them small and big aunt.
well my small aunt just gt engaged and my big aunt just broke up with her bf.
so what am I suppose to feel? someone please tell me.
anyways. had an engagement party-cum- big aunt birthday party ( she bought a new laptop and my uncle ( nt related ) bargained for free gifts until can die sia. )
and sat only my mom and i went to JB. so a lot of cold war i guess. lol. she wanted to help my aunt set up her laptop take so long. dont wan listen to me. then go sing K, choose song for people one. lol my aunts scold her. people wan sing will choose their own song dont need her to choose. then had about 1 jug of beer. and back to sg!

then about church. i was suppose to wake up early today, but kinda failed. lol. Thank God Amos called me. if nt i would've continue to sleep. so yeah Thank God.
anyways he called me to ask if i going for service cause apparently besides him and my cell leader, no one else from my cell was there. lol. i told him i was coming then he asked where was i, i said home. then he asked me if i knew the time. i looked up and guess wat. ITS 10 AM!!!! lol. time the service starts. so i rushed to wash up and stuff, as i was about to leave i realised my mom was still home as well. haha, she like bathe finished gt dressed then feel back asleep on the bed. haha. woke her up in the end she didnt go. so went for service. repeated the same msg as i tink a few years ago. and the most disappoiting thing is that this year. THERES NO LUNCH!!!! thats like so sad. haha. anyways. stayed in church till like 6+ had dinner with my cell leader and dwight and then went to lan cause they wanted to play.
played till 9.30 gt a scolding from my mom cause i said i'll be home at 7+ lol. =x my bad.

ok and now below would be the photos of my classmates and I fooling around during Aircraft Systems practical on the A4 Super Skyhawk, a jet fighter aircraft if some of u peeps might not know. =)

This is my class gays, meet kian in blue and alvin the one being mounted on. Wei xiongs face at the back is just priceless. haha.

this is a pic of wei xiong and yu long. remember even aircraft need to check blind spot, if nt people like yu long might sneak up on u!

ok just to inform this picture was forced. and that hand u see at the back is proof of it.

and the last pic which i took in the evening after i woke up from my nice nap.

haha. anyways. heres something i would like to share.

we shouldnt always pray for blessings to come to us but why dont we be the blessers and bless the community.

-zach
is still in the midst of changing
is still wondering of the few thing he typed a few posts ago.
is feeling contented with whatever he has now.
is typing his last line on the blog.

Another day gone by.

2008-07-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps.

Today i aint gonna blog much.
just gonna say the events of the day.
well, woke up late. so missed my class lunch. but managed to make it for prat. lol.
on the A4SU super skyhawk. a bloody old jet fighter, which u can see if u pass by singapore poly. well we were fooling around the plane and had 2 hrs of photo taking. haha.
had lotsa gay funny and weird photos. i even have a video. the video of the magnificent rajan dancing on the wings of the plane. haha.

well.. besides that. the only other thing i did was to study.. well. APP test is tomorrow at 3. so wish me all the best you peeps!. haha. wonder how the paper would be like. spent almost this whole week studying just APP alone. 4 nights in a row. macdonalds. man. lol. need a new place to study. but WHERE.

well.. guess thats about all for today. shall blog the photos another day.
thx xiao bai tu for resizing the pics for me =) and im really sry about morning!

-zach
is wondering about answers.
is sorry for what happnended in the morning.
is feeling lazy
is hoping he can do well for the paper
needs to study the other modules as well
is going to kill himself soon for being so boring.

UPDATE!

2008-07-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

hey all its update time!
lol. been really busy mugging these few days. i know some of u peeps out there find it hard to believe but i am ok! see. theres a change in me =D

anyways. today i tink i shall blog about my fruits! well an email sent to me by my scandal. ok here it goes:

i was asking to select a fruit from 12 choices which are:
1. Orange
2. Apple
3. Banana
4. Coconut
5. Pineapple
6. Papaya
7. Mango
8. Cherry
9. Black Grapes
10. Peach
11. Custard Apple
12. Pear

ok. i initially selected banana. but i was torn between that and mango. but oh well. banana it is. and heres wat its says about me =)

BANANA - You are a softy! Loving, gentle, warm and sympathetic by
nature is the banana lover. You often lack in self-confidence and are
quite timid by nature. People often take advantage of your sweet
temper, and sheer vulnerability to a situation. You adore your partner
in every which way, both for their mental and physical beauty! Because
of the way you are, your relationship is always very much in harmony!

as much as i wanted to say this is 100%.
there are 1 particular thing i'd like to change.
my relationships always start out very much in harmony but ends in disharmony. so whether that is true i dont know. but i wish i could end my next one with a symphony. =)

anyways for mango it'd be

MANGO - A mango lover is a personality to be reckoned with; quite
often, you are a person who has quite fixed ideas, and influencing you
is not an easy task. You tend to be an extremist with strong likes and
dislikes, and at times even like to control a situation... You enjoy
getting involved in something that presents mental challenge. Strong
as you may be, you are like a kitten when you are with your partner.
You accommodate the love of your life, and make up for all the strong
will elsewhere!

well this also sounds like me. so how?

and the next one is what someone who reads my blog chose. haha.
PEACH.

PEACH - Like a peach, you enjoy the juice of life and all its lush
ripeness! You are the friendly sort, and are quite frank and
outspoken, which adds to your charm. You are quick to forgive and
forget; and value your friendships highly. You have an independent and
ambitious streak in you that make you a real go-getter. You are the
ideal lover, fiery and passionate but sincere and faithful in love.
You don't, however, like to display all that passion in public.

ok enough about fruits.
i want to blog one thing about cell last night.

It was heavy and i learned something.
It started with a question. What makes freedom frightening to you?
and my answer was.

Freedom.

think about it peeps.
thats all for today, tune in for more! haha.

-zach
is still wishing the same list as before
and would like to add one more.
enjoy a special birthday this year.

SUNDAY. 6th july

2008-07-06T21:42:00.002+08:00

Its been sometime since i blogged.
and since some people are bugging me to update. i shall update. haha.
anyways. Happy Birthday to Winston Cheong Sheng Kit. you are now 1 year older.
anyways. my birthday is still a long way more. and wondering how am I gonna celebrate it this year. well.. its still a long way more to tink about that. =D

okays. update for the pass few days.
Joel dont be angry. any thing wrong can come talk to me like brothers ok?
always online till late late. haha.
and its time for me to start exercising! i've lost my stamina. total 0. cant even run. lol. and i need to start studying! test this coming fri and i finish only 1 chapter! gonna stay back the whole week to mug. lol. hope i can pass this fridays test. gonna be a tough one. but gonna pray bout it =D oh and my second BTT is in 2 weeks time as well.(Studying now) so many tests!!!!

anyways. my GAN JIE is back in SG! wee! but only till tues and i've gt no time to meet her =( never mind she promised me dec we shall meet up and im holding her word for it =D.

anyways except for today there was nothing much for the other few days. today went to watch Hancock. quite an alright movie. you'd be laughing through like half the movie. haha. simple story but its ok i guess. after the movie followed cell peeps down to cine while they walked i went to find what brenda terms as "best friend" and chat with her till cell peeps were done. otw to the MRT saw STONNER! lol. looking as toot as usual. haha. some more see her at the same crossing again. then stare at each other like cannot recognise for a while. lol.

reached home at like 7. had a short 2 min nagging session by mom. went to bathe and then the comp.

just to let you peeps know. i'll be tinking of stopping work for a few months soon. due to studies and FYP. and so. for movies wise i wont really be keeping in touch for a while. SORRY PEEPS. NO INFO UNLESS I'VE WATCHED IT. =D

ok i tink i'll stop here for today. =p

-zach
has made a pact with God and hope his wish is granted. ( sound so Genie like )
is trying real hard to change for the better.
is praying every day for a better tomorrow.
has shot himself in the head.( JUST JOKING )
is listening to Goodbye Girl by David Gates. ( OLDIES )
needs to plan his week ahead.
needs to manage his money wisely.
needs to exercise more regularly.
must start doing QT again ( havent really done proper QT for quite some time )
thanks everyone who's still his friend and they will be missed once his gone in 3 years time.

shopping!

2008-07-02T22:16:00.002+08:00

Hey all, today has been an eventful day!
haha. well came to class liek 5 mins late. but only 4 people in class. by 8.30 we had 8! lol. wat an improvement eh? well todays practical for avionics was quite simple la. just wire here and there.

after that classmates went for run. i stayed and looked after their stuff wasnt really prepared but did a few pull ups. haha. well can do 3 standard ones at one shot. nt bad already for nt exercising for so long. hhaa. need to train for napfa!!
cause i cant run anymore! thats like so sad.

had FYP meeting with kelvin. havent seen him in amsot 1 month plus. lols. a lot of things to inform him. after that had Avionics lecture. which was totally BORING. but teacher had a great time telling jokes instead of TEACHING. haha. actually he did teach la. but he slides a bit sala one. thats why kena suan.

since had fyp meeting earlier. i had the whole afternoon off! wee! was suppose to follow classmates to sing K but they only booked for 6. so instead went out shopping with xiao bai tu! pictures are below.( taken at macs during the heavy rain!)

well met her around 2 in front of the mariott hotel cause she wanted to go far east. so we walked there for about 3 and a half hours. ( women and their amazing energy for SHOPPING. lols.) well she wanted to buy like a top pants shoes and cardigan. well we bought everything except the shoes cause there were no nice ones she fancied. haha.

anyways. here are the awaited photos. ( i know SOME people will sure say something later one. haha.)

this is the CONSTIPATED ME!

the xiaobais once again!

just the rabbit herself =)

and the "stick our tongue out photo~"(she deleted the one where she stuck her tongue out :( )

haha. well this was what i did today and now its time to compile slides for Avionics assignment which is needed to hand in on friday. but i still need DAVINS part. hope he hands it in.

Take care and Enjoy peeps!
God is good all the time and all the time God is good!
So bless one and all and expect nothing back but the love of God =)

-zach
is back and relatively happy and hoping to change his old habits.

Goodbye

2008-07-02T00:45:00.004+08:00

hey all!
today wore a shirt my aunt bought for me. Cotton On. Electric blue i tink. haha.
suits my wall colour so i can camouflage and u can see me!

Well school was alright today. was kinda late cause was waiting for Ment. so was roughly bout 30 mins late missed part of his briefing for pract. but its alright i guess cause the pract is more impt. haha. well after that had om and aircraft systems where i just played my psp and msged all the way. lol.

after sch went to taka find xiao bai tu and waited for japheth to end sch. since cell was cancelled we decided to watch the 9.25 show of Get Smart. (Even though xiao bai tu ending at 9.30) haha. so obviously we were partially late for the movie. but oh wells dont tink we missed much anyways. haha.

Was a funny and alright movie to watch. not really worth to watch again in the movies. haha.

anyway. heres the pic of my hair before im gonna cut tomorrow. hence the title goodbye!
Support Product(blue) not (red) =)

-zach
is back and kicking.

SLACK!

2008-07-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

Hey all,

its been a difficult monday. i've been slacking too much, and i need to buck up. but im too slack to buck up. HOW? argh.
i lost my self discipline. what happened to it. where has it gone.
i want to find it again...

everydays been the same routine. and its killing me.
i need something more. i need to do something more!
is this what people call a backslider? hmm.. dont really know..

RAWR!

Need someone to slap me hard and wake me up from my bloody dream world.
theres like so few things that i actually put in effort to do nowadays.
what cause this change in me. or was it always there just that someone always kept reminding me of its consequences.

Is there a too late for me?
or is this just the beginning?

MARK WAKE UP!
*slaps slaps slaps*
ITS MY FINAL YEAR! I NEED TO STUDY!!!
*SLAPS SLAPS SLAPS*

okay. this post is really random or really serious.
*continues to knock head on table*

-zach
is back to insanity.

Flights of Fancy By West Grand Boulevard.

2008-06-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

just felt like posting this.

Verse 1
Sit with me, Come and play, I need you, So near.
Stay a while, For a day, Maybe two, Have no fear.
What I am is not all good,
is not all bad,
Is okay.
Time has come, Wish we could,
Get it back, Its too late.

Chorus
And I,
Miss you the most.
And I,
Miss you the most.

Verse 2
Sing to me, Once again, In your room, Like old days.
Speak to me, Empty pants, How'd you do, In always.
Bring me back, Little smiles, Funny ways, You speak to me.
Bring me back, All your whiles, Wimps it calls that I'll say

Chorus x 2( with a guitar solo inbetween)

anyways. theres 2 lines in the song i dont understand.
"Speak to me, Empty pants, How'd you do, In always."
and
"Bring me back, All your whiles, Wimps it calls that I'll say"

the first line sounds a bit wrong though.

POST!

2008-06-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hey all, its yet for another post after a long break. lols. well 4-5 days is a long break. anyways. i might nt continue the topic because im kinda tired and partially lazy to type out most stuff but if you peeps really really wanna see then i shall type it out for u guys.

well this week pass real fast. its like 1 more week less to study for end semester exams. which i hope i wont flunk this sem. i've like done everything wrong this sem. sinned. and just sinned more. and nt studying. and just slacking.

what have i done with my life. i really wonder. what have i accomplished so far?
im guessing that im like a failure. but a good failure. so at least i've gt a GOOD in there. rather than failure. nvm. im just crapping if you didnt understand that.

well. the weather aint too high these days. somethings bugging me. but what is it.
i want to know! whats bugging me inside thats like draining me and just shutting my thoughts off.

*listening to DKNY by west grand boulevard
"...your smile keeps me up all day..."*

rawr. just stonning. and just thinking. of the air space and basically nothing.
and just singing along to the songs like i used to.( how i wish i had my old voice back )

-zach
is back with an attitude that you wont like.
and neither does he.
so do stay clear of his mood swings.

RAWR.

2008-06-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

ok. today is one the tiring days of the week so far.
Didnt sleep last night at all. kept joel company playing warcarft 3. gave morning call to xiao bai tu at 6 and off i went to sch with a bag full of stuff.

first lesson was alright i guess a bit chim but understandable to a certain extent. after lesson went for a run 4 rounds around the stadium a few sets of push ups and shuttle run. after my shuttle run i almost vommitted 4 times. like it came 4 times but i didnt puke that kinda feeling.

after that by the time i finished washing up time to go comp lab to do the circuit diagram for my FYP. using a program called AUTOCAD. man havent used it since year 1. lols. lucky still remember most stuff. so did it till 12 then went for aircarft systems lecture. was stoning there and played my psp the last 15 mins.

today i also had a porject review for my FYP. man the co-examiner trying to make us feel like idiots or wat. just because we were 10 mins late, kena screwed by him. and every word we use in our presentation he need to stop and ask how to spell ( like WTH?). after the meeting i was suppose to stay back to revise APP 2. but i was too darn tired to carry on.

and now im like half pushing myself to complete this post. lols.. Otw home just nw saw Eudora. havent talked to her in a while. so we msged a bit here and there and i found out she just broke up recently. poor girl.

reached home slept for like an hour or so dinner time. had home made mashed potato and one slab of salmon. nt very filling but hey its still food.

sry peeps but point 2 of my cells topic will be postponed. dont think i've the energy to type everything out. especially when my left eye is getting irritated.
oh wells, im signing off now peeps.

have a good evening and a great week.
CHEESE!

-zach
is back and uber tired.

2 weeks ago cell topic for Arumugamuthuparapap.

2008-06-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

Ok in case u peeps wanna know wats Arumugamuthuparapap.
its my cell groups name. thought of by none other than Spenser. He calls it "Organized Rubbish".

ok the quote verse for that day was:

(1 Cor 14:33,40)" For God is not a God of disorder; btu of peace...
Everything should be done in a fitting and orderly way."

Basically there are 4 points to the topic which is called Critical Planning.

1. Take control of your schedule,
2. Relieve pressure with margin,
3. Do only what I can do,
4. Dont manage - LEAD.

Okay, the first point Take control of your schedule,
Bible verses to back this part up is Psalm 90:12 and Proverbs 10:27.

there are 2 parts to the first point;
a) Organizing your time.
how?
3 steps: Devise your GOALS around your PURPOSE, organize your activities around your relationships and thirdly harmonize your schedule around your values.
b) The BIG rock illustration
What is it?
Take for example u have a big rock,some pebbles, gravel,rough sand, fine sand and a bottle.
Now you have to fill up this bottle with all the things given to you. so take the Big rock as God, pebbles as Myself, gravel as your family, ministry as rough sand and finally the fine sand as work. In what order are you going to place them?

below is the IDEAL( in my opinion ) how it should be placed with back up for each:
i. God-Matthew 6:33
ii. Myself-Proverbs 4:23
iii. My Family- 1 Timothy 5:8
iv. Ministry - Ephesians 2:19
v. Work - Titus 3:14/Prov 10: 27

so now the critical question is: Do you control your time or does your time control you?

for the rest of the 3 points i'll update them one day at a time cause its really a lot to post =D
due tune in for more k?
love ya peeps!

-zach
is back and pumped.

Second day of mah blog.

2008-06-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hey all, its my second day blogging again. lols.
anyways. today was suppose to meet adi early in sch but kinda woke up late so i reach sch late as well. though i started at 1 xD

well. APP tutorial was just copying answers so it ended 1 hr early. had my lunch cum dinner due to financial problems ( overspent during hols ). after that followed organisational management. a module that is termed useless to my classmates and I. the final lect of the day was aircraft systems. taught us about oxygen and pressure. interesting but still didnt listen much. haha. and because today's lesson were so boring, msged xiao bai tu =P.

after sch it was round 5 so went straight home before went to cell. met jowell otw.
since its cell day today. and with my blog called our daily essentials, i'd like to stick to it. haha. so imma post about what was cell about today.

BEWARE ITS GONNA BE VERY VERY LONG! cause i've to post 2 weeks ago cell before u can understand today's one. but oh well. dont understand can always ask me =)

Hope you peeps like it and can join me every tuesday night at 7.30pm for cell.

-zach
is back for the second day.

In case you're thinking whose that in the pic.

2008-06-24T00:40:00.001+08:00

The girl in the pic is xiao bai tu. haha.
if you're tinking something dont!
she helped me with the blog stuff so i thank her by putting her photo there. haha.
=P

-zach
is back.

for the people with blogs.

2008-06-23T22:27:00.001+08:00

pls leave ur links in the comment box so that i can link all of u wonderful peeps =D

Back to blooging. for the 3rd time. lols!

2008-06-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

BOO! you must be scared to see that im back to blogging right.. haha.
well. guess what. im seriously back to bore you again with my daily rantings. =D
but this time its our daily essentials, explains my nick.

Hope you peeps will link me again and start tagging once everything is up and running =)
thanks to Xiao Bai Tu for helping me with the skin. haha.

-zach
is back.