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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

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Okays today i shall post some pictures but without captions. im too tired and gonna sleep after the uploads. hope their sizes are alright =D.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:28 AM|

Monday, July 28, 2008

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hello people.
today is a good day. haha.0 besides ms rabbit being sick everything seems to be fine. booked my FTT on the 08/08/08. lol auspicious date i hope. same day as the first day of OLYMPICS! haha. imagine my FTT ebing one of the sports and me going to go for GOLD! haha. ok im crapping. my etrial on the monday before the friday. me and jap both same day but different timing cause slot only gt 1. so have to take timings one after another. but oh heck same day. lol.

anyways brenda helped me and jap top up our accounts so THNX BRENDA!. =D and helped jap and i to book our etrail too. haha. and she even introduced a website to help us on the FTT www.sgdriving.net haha. did the questions had some mistakes but realised the questions seemed easier than BTT.

anyway. stopped the SINFUL thing i've been doing these few days. =D so too bad clement dont tink u'll guess wat it is. =D

i vowed to sleep early starting from this week and im going to keep my word. I am going to try my best and follow my schedule that i've planned and going to plan. especially financially. so gambatte to me.

its almost time for sleeeeeeeep. so i really need to sign off soon. these few days of dota-ing kinda boring cause kept losing and every time start losing joel say no mood play. so dont play lor. lol. also good for me. sleep early! if nt need pei him play. though sometimes is i ask de. haha. =x

anyway tried to download HSM 3 but after completing asks me to install some new video driver which obviously im not going to do. so im just gonna wait since realease date worldwide is in oct anyways. so im guessing its a fake one.

OKAY! wed i getting pay wed i use finish. sure one. go out with classmates. pay back to YJ for the food. ya-da ya-da ya-da. lol. and paying for my BUS RIDES!. ok tues im nt going for supper after cell. =D cause im totally my pocket i tink no more le. hole too big. lol.

so im ending off here peeps.
SRY NO PICTURE AGAIN PEOPLE!!! SOON SOON WILL HAVE PHOTOS!!!
I PROMISE!

-zach
is back to normal.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:20 AM|

Friday, July 25, 2008

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hey world.
its been studying studying studying these 3 weeks. really stressing me out!. lol first time i every studied so much. somemore studying nt for exam. study for test. which wont be tested for exam. its both good and bad la. lesser to study for exam but like waste time. lol.

its been 3 straight nights doing something that i usually dont do. Am I getting addicted to it? everytime i see something it just stirs up the emotions. I do hope to stop it soon. Im guessin i wont be doing it tomorrow night cause i'll be like too tired. gonna be a full full day tomorrow. 8am class then end work at 1am. by the time home already 2+ so yeah. too tired.

man. i feel tired. just did it actually. lol. thats why i said 3 straight days!
and by next wed i do hope i've planned out my whole august. both financially and for studying. gonna be a tiring month. even after exams not much rest. gt FYP to do. nevermind. just 8 months more!. and about a year moer before NS.

but as time passes so fast, im gonna miss this place..people who know i do hope can meet up before going to ns and spend some time together. photos. yeah. before im gone.

so since im like drained now. i shall sign off here and do hope that i'll do well for my test assignments and exam. oh yeah and i gt a warning letter for GEMS attendance. lol. so do hope i can wake up for the next few mondays. lol.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:58 AM|

Thursday, July 24, 2008

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"Country road.. take me home..
to the place.. where i belong.."

if there were every a road like country road, i wish i was taking it now.
i need you like i never did before.
everything i put before you now, take and lift them off my shoulders.
i wish to be set free from these things that i've done with my own hands and just live life the way i was supposed to be; Alone.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:43 AM|

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hey all., yawns. i feel so damn drained.
well lets recap the events of this week so far..
mon nothing much happened except went out studying with classmates at potong pasirs mac.
Tues had my BTT and i passed( second time taking ). had cell at night. realised my bible was left at glenns place. talked about galations 2 and how its related to galations 1. came home. gamed a while. chatted a while. did something sinful for a while.
today. woke up at 6.30. gt ready for sch. sat on bed. fell asleep till 10. so missed my prac in the morn. test at 3.30. so went back to sleep. woke up at 12. studied till 1.30 ate lunch. and went off to sch. Systems test was partially screwed up, everyone tot so too. so all of us went to eat at some steamboat place at farrer park, forgot the name. some china-people-runned place. food was delicious. first time ever enjoyed steamboat like fully. had a MAN talk with the guys.
after that went to punggol park with them sat and drank.
sat there and continued to talk about MAN stuff. first time we all so open about our more private lives. so yeah. sat there for 2 hrs chatting. everyone wanted to destress from the tests. fri gt another one. sian. till the 27 of aug. gt test almsot every week and so many assignments to hand in. gonna feel totally drained. man after 31st aug ar. i tell u WOOO! can rest. after that FYP. sianded.

Something I'd like to quote from a movie
"Usually the quietest person in the group is usually the most perverted one."
and i partially agree to this.

Im like back to stonning again. worrying about stuff that i need not worry. doing stuff that i should not do.
still in the process of changing certain stuff about me. so yeah. hope its for the better.

-zach.....
is feeling so damn dead.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:03 AM|

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

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my BTT is tomorrow. hope i pass. if fail again damn malu nia. 2 times. so sad.
exams are coming. tests. assignments due. fyp. no work. no increment of allowance.
havent started planning. aint doing anything right these few days..

from Aug onwards. needa change how i spend already. gotta pay back a few people money!. n im overspending. so no more movies on sundays for me. no more going out for suppers unless for cell. no more going to fancy places to eat with classmates any more. its save save save! and stop spending.

and im planning to eat the same meal for lunch in sch everyday! haha. chicken cutlet rice or the muslim stall chciken rendang. delicious and cheap food.

do that for a few months. and i can start saving again.!
then hope by next year can save enough to go overseas.
i need to change my attitude. im too........ slacky and like cant do anything.
i feel so useless. i need to start cleaning my room. help out around the house,
play with my dog more often..

-zach
is signing off.
is going to play one round of dota.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:18 AM|

Saturday, July 19, 2008

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well, its update time again peoples!

today kinda missed sch cause i overslept =x
so woke up at like about 11 i think. previous night had a massive stomache ache while playing dota with joel. haha. dunno why. then so pain till i fell asleep on table. =P then lights on everything on. in the end still win the game. haha. and before i slept i saw xiaobaitu online. i wake up xiaobaitu still online. haha. as if like she didnt sleep at all.

anyway. woke up feeling super drained. dunno for wat reason. maybe cause take all my energy to get rid of stomachache. =? anyways. after that went to dhoby.
first to my workplace to print a piece of paper like receipt like that to pay for the Nike + run which i signed up tgt with my classmates and jap. 10km run. gonna be the longest run i ever ran. lol. hope i can make it. after paying. went back to my workplace to watch wedding daze alone. actually i saw some colleagues but nvm. gt people sitting next to them so i didnt bother. so watched the movie ALONE. the movie was quite funny la. haha. i dont mind watching it again. but it was very short. simple storyline.

after the movie came home. played wahjong first. after dinner dota-ed till about maybe 15 mins ago? i seriously need to find something else to do. my whole room is in a mess cause i've been mugging these few weeks so my books are every where. especially on my bed. lol. speaking of which i slept on them yest after i woke up at like 6+am to move to my bed.

gonna work from 11-11 tomorrow. well thats the rough timing. planned is 12-10
but its gonna be 11-11 more or less. big gala event for dark knight organised by J.P. Morgan. was talking about that company to clement the day before. haha.

and so, now im back on my comp reflecting about how much time i've wasted away.
in total of this week. i estimate i've maybe wasted about 90% of the time away, either stoning sleeping playing games and emo-ing around.

and dont ask me why im emo-ing. cause im not too sure myself.
im more or less sure but im still nt gonna say why. lol.
so dont pester me to tell u!

*currently listening to cold as you by taylor swift(<-----PRETTY!!!)*

my mind seems blank now. kinda erased everything thats happened already.
and just typing what i feel like typing. cause im drawn at a blank.
so im going to sign off now.

-zach
has an empty head.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:27 AM|

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

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This is Who I Am Now.

its time for a little reflection on how much i've changed since dunno whenever.

1. I'm losing my ability to tolerate people.
2. I'm starting to forget the principles that i promised myself.
3. I've lost my sense of self control over certain stuff.
4. I've become ignorant.
5. I've become someone that i used to wish that I'd not be but I'm still trying to change back to who i was and wanted to be.
6. I've lost something important to me.(well... its suppose to be important.)
7. I sometimes dont know who my REAL friends are anymore too.
8. Lost track of the people he once knew that really meant something to him.
9. I'm still a dreamer of bigger things but no motivation to do anything.
10. Sleep and music is the only form of relaxation i have left. ( Church used to be in it)

Things that havent changed in me

1. Im still lazy.
2. I still dislike eating Eggs, bittergourd, brinjol and the usual stuff that most people know.
3. I'm still a sweet tooth.
4. I'm still a hypocrite in certain ways.
5. I'm still straight.
6. I'm still wishing for that empty space in me to be filled.
7. I'm still a God lover.
8. I'm still a person who hides his true nature.
9. I'm still the person who lives in the pass and doesnt worry about too much about the future and most of the time dislikes the present.( traditional? )
10. I'm still the guy who always screws things up.

-zach
is alright people.
is just... himself.

[[ Zach ]]*|11:51 PM|

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-zach
is just feeling the way he always feels when he's up late at night, alone and thinking that he just wasted his life away.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:51 AM|

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-zach
has lost his mind.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:51 AM|

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-zach
feels angry,frustated,disappointed,emotional and stoned.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:49 AM|

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-zach
is bored of his life.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:49 AM|

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-zach
feels tempted to do a lot of stuff.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:48 AM|

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-zach
feels like doing something that he isnt suppose to do.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:48 AM|

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-zach
feels like jumping out of his window.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:45 AM|

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Verse 1:
Who am I that the Lord of all the Earth
would care to know my name,
would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I that the bright and morning star,
would choose the light the way,
for my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
but because of what you've done.
Not because of what I'v done,
but because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
a vapour in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling.
I am yours, I am yours.

Verse 2:
Who am I that the eyes that see our skin,
would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again.
Who am I that the voice that calmed the sea,
would call our through the rain
and calm the storm in me.

Bridge & Chorus x2

Whom shall I fear?
whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:34 AM|

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

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-zach
feels incompetent.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:28 AM|

Monday, July 14, 2008

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Hey peeps,

its passed midnight and the monday blues start to kick in.
anyways. few things to blog about. first i'll blog about my aunts then wat happened in church and the the photos i promised to upload( only gt a few, dont wan ma fan xiao bai tu to resize the rest =P ).

ok first my aunts, wats so interesting?
well a lot happened on sat.
I've gt 2 aunts i call them small and big aunt.
well my small aunt just gt engaged and my big aunt just broke up with her bf.
so what am I suppose to feel? someone please tell me.
anyways. had an engagement party-cum- big aunt birthday party ( she bought a new laptop and my uncle ( nt related ) bargained for free gifts until can die sia. )
and sat only my mom and i went to JB. so a lot of cold war i guess. lol. she wanted to help my aunt set up her laptop take so long. dont wan listen to me. then go sing K, choose song for people one. lol my aunts scold her. people wan sing will choose their own song dont need her to choose. then had about 1 jug of beer. and back to sg!

then about church. i was suppose to wake up early today, but kinda failed. lol. Thank God Amos called me. if nt i would've continue to sleep. so yeah Thank God.
anyways he called me to ask if i going for service cause apparently besides him and my cell leader, no one else from my cell was there. lol. i told him i was coming then he asked where was i, i said home. then he asked me if i knew the time. i looked up and guess wat. ITS 10 AM!!!! lol. time the service starts. so i rushed to wash up and stuff, as i was about to leave i realised my mom was still home as well. haha, she like bathe finished gt dressed then feel back asleep on the bed. haha. woke her up in the end she didnt go. so went for service. repeated the same msg as i tink a few years ago. and the most disappoiting thing is that this year. THERES NO LUNCH!!!! thats like so sad. haha. anyways. stayed in church till like 6+ had dinner with my cell leader and dwight and then went to lan cause they wanted to play.
played till 9.30 gt a scolding from my mom cause i said i'll be home at 7+ lol. =x my bad.

ok and now below would be the photos of my classmates and I fooling around during Aircraft Systems practical on the A4 Super Skyhawk, a jet fighter aircraft if some of u peeps might not know. =)

This is my class gays, meet kian in blue and alvin the one being mounted on. Wei xiongs face at the back is just priceless. haha.

this is a pic of wei xiong and yu long. remember even aircraft need to check blind spot, if nt people like yu long might sneak up on u!

ok just to inform this picture was forced. and that hand u see at the back is proof of it.

and the last pic which i took in the evening after i woke up from my nice nap.

haha. anyways. heres something i would like to share.

we shouldnt always pray for blessings to come to us but why dont we be the blessers and bless the community.

-zach
is still in the midst of changing
is still wondering of the few thing he typed a few posts ago.
is feeling contented with whatever he has now.
is typing his last line on the blog.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:05 AM|

Friday, July 11, 2008

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Hey peeps.

Today i aint gonna blog much.
just gonna say the events of the day.
well, woke up late. so missed my class lunch. but managed to make it for prat. lol.
on the A4SU super skyhawk. a bloody old jet fighter, which u can see if u pass by singapore poly. well we were fooling around the plane and had 2 hrs of photo taking. haha.
had lotsa gay funny and weird photos. i even have a video. the video of the magnificent rajan dancing on the wings of the plane. haha.

well.. besides that. the only other thing i did was to study.. well. APP test is tomorrow at 3. so wish me all the best you peeps!. haha. wonder how the paper would be like. spent almost this whole week studying just APP alone. 4 nights in a row. macdonalds. man. lol. need a new place to study. but WHERE.

well.. guess thats about all for today. shall blog the photos another day.
thx xiao bai tu for resizing the pics for me =) and im really sry about morning!

-zach
is wondering about answers.
is sorry for what happnended in the morning.
is feeling lazy
is hoping he can do well for the paper
needs to study the other modules as well
is going to kill himself soon for being so boring.

[[ Zach ]]*|1:53 AM|

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

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hey all its update time!
lol. been really busy mugging these few days. i know some of u peeps out there find it hard to believe but i am ok! see. theres a change in me =D

anyways. today i tink i shall blog about my fruits! well an email sent to me by my scandal. ok here it goes:

i was asking to select a fruit from 12 choices which are:
1. Orange
2. Apple
3. Banana
4. Coconut
5. Pineapple
6. Papaya
7. Mango
8. Cherry
9. Black Grapes
10. Peach
11. Custard Apple
12. Pear

ok. i initially selected banana. but i was torn between that and mango. but oh well. banana it is. and heres wat its says about me =)

BANANA - You are a softy! Loving, gentle, warm and sympathetic by
nature is the banana lover. You often lack in self-confidence and are
quite timid by nature. People often take advantage of your sweet
temper, and sheer vulnerability to a situation. You adore your partner
in every which way, both for their mental and physical beauty! Because
of the way you are, your relationship is always very much in harmony!

as much as i wanted to say this is 100%.
there are 1 particular thing i'd like to change.
my relationships always start out very much in harmony but ends in disharmony. so whether that is true i dont know. but i wish i could end my next one with a symphony. =)

anyways for mango it'd be

MANGO - A mango lover is a personality to be reckoned with; quite
often, you are a person who has quite fixed ideas, and influencing you
is not an easy task. You tend to be an extremist with strong likes and
dislikes, and at times even like to control a situation... You enjoy
getting involved in something that presents mental challenge. Strong
as you may be, you are like a kitten when you are with your partner.
You accommodate the love of your life, and make up for all the strong
will elsewhere!

well this also sounds like me. so how?

and the next one is what someone who reads my blog chose. haha.
PEACH.

PEACH - Like a peach, you enjoy the juice of life and all its lush
ripeness! You are the friendly sort, and are quite frank and
outspoken, which adds to your charm. You are quick to forgive and
forget; and value your friendships highly. You have an independent and
ambitious streak in you that make you a real go-getter. You are the
ideal lover, fiery and passionate but sincere and faithful in love.
You don't, however, like to display all that passion in public.

ok enough about fruits.
i want to blog one thing about cell last night.

It was heavy and i learned something.
It started with a question. What makes freedom frightening to you?
and my answer was.

Freedom.

think about it peeps.
thats all for today, tune in for more! haha.

-zach
is still wishing the same list as before
and would like to add one more.
enjoy a special birthday this year.

[[ Zach ]]*|11:45 PM|

Sunday, July 6, 2008

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Its been sometime since i blogged.
and since some people are bugging me to update. i shall update. haha.
anyways. Happy Birthday to Winston Cheong Sheng Kit. you are now 1 year older.
anyways. my birthday is still a long way more. and wondering how am I gonna celebrate it this year. well.. its still a long way more to tink about that. =D

okays. update for the pass few days.
Joel dont be angry. any thing wrong can come talk to me like brothers ok?
always online till late late. haha.
and its time for me to start exercising! i've lost my stamina. total 0. cant even run. lol. and i need to start studying! test this coming fri and i finish only 1 chapter! gonna stay back the whole week to mug. lol. hope i can pass this fridays test. gonna be a tough one. but gonna pray bout it =D oh and my second BTT is in 2 weeks time as well.(Studying now) so many tests!!!!

anyways. my GAN JIE is back in SG! wee! but only till tues and i've gt no time to meet her =( never mind she promised me dec we shall meet up and im holding her word for it =D.

anyways except for today there was nothing much for the other few days. today went to watch Hancock. quite an alright movie. you'd be laughing through like half the movie. haha. simple story but its ok i guess. after the movie followed cell peeps down to cine while they walked i went to find what brenda terms as "best friend" and chat with her till cell peeps were done. otw to the MRT saw STONNER! lol. looking as toot as usual. haha. some more see her at the same crossing again. then stare at each other like cannot recognise for a while. lol.

reached home at like 7. had a short 2 min nagging session by mom. went to bathe and then the comp.

just to let you peeps know. i'll be tinking of stopping work for a few months soon. due to studies and FYP. and so. for movies wise i wont really be keeping in touch for a while. SORRY PEEPS. NO INFO UNLESS I'VE WATCHED IT. =D

ok i tink i'll stop here for today. =p

-zach
has made a pact with God and hope his wish is granted. ( sound so Genie like )
is trying real hard to change for the better.
is praying every day for a better tomorrow.
has shot himself in the head.( JUST JOKING )
is listening to Goodbye Girl by David Gates. ( OLDIES )
needs to plan his week ahead.
needs to manage his money wisely.
needs to exercise more regularly.
must start doing QT again ( havent really done proper QT for quite some time )
thanks everyone who's still his friend and they will be missed once his gone in 3 years time.

[[ Zach ]]*|9:42 PM|

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

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Hey all, today has been an eventful day!
haha. well came to class liek 5 mins late. but only 4 people in class. by 8.30 we had 8! lol. wat an improvement eh? well todays practical for avionics was quite simple la. just wire here and there.

after that classmates went for run. i stayed and looked after their stuff wasnt really prepared but did a few pull ups. haha. well can do 3 standard ones at one shot. nt bad already for nt exercising for so long. hhaa. need to train for napfa!!
cause i cant run anymore! thats like so sad.

had FYP meeting with kelvin. havent seen him in amsot 1 month plus. lols. a lot of things to inform him. after that had Avionics lecture. which was totally BORING. but teacher had a great time telling jokes instead of TEACHING. haha. actually he did teach la. but he slides a bit sala one. thats why kena suan.

since had fyp meeting earlier. i had the whole afternoon off! wee! was suppose to follow classmates to sing K but they only booked for 6. so instead went out shopping with xiao bai tu! pictures are below.( taken at macs during the heavy rain!)

well met her around 2 in front of the mariott hotel cause she wanted to go far east. so we walked there for about 3 and a half hours. ( women and their amazing energy for SHOPPING. lols.) well she wanted to buy like a top pants shoes and cardigan. well we bought everything except the shoes cause there were no nice ones she fancied. haha.

anyways. here are the awaited photos. ( i know SOME people will sure say something later one. haha.)

this is the CONSTIPATED ME!

the xiaobais once again!

just the rabbit herself =)

and the "stick our tongue out photo~"(she deleted the one where she stuck her tongue out :( )

haha. well this was what i did today and now its time to compile slides for Avionics assignment which is needed to hand in on friday. but i still need DAVINS part. hope he hands it in.

Take care and Enjoy peeps!
God is good all the time and all the time God is good!
So bless one and all and expect nothing back but the love of God =)

-zach
is back and relatively happy and hoping to change his old habits.

[[ Zach ]]*|10:16 PM|

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hey all!
today wore a shirt my aunt bought for me. Cotton On. Electric blue i tink. haha.
suits my wall colour so i can camouflage and u can see me!

Well school was alright today. was kinda late cause was waiting for Ment. so was roughly bout 30 mins late missed part of his briefing for pract. but its alright i guess cause the pract is more impt. haha. well after that had om and aircraft systems where i just played my psp and msged all the way. lol.

after sch went to taka find xiao bai tu and waited for japheth to end sch. since cell was cancelled we decided to watch the 9.25 show of Get Smart. (Even though xiao bai tu ending at 9.30) haha. so obviously we were partially late for the movie. but oh wells dont tink we missed much anyways. haha.

Was a funny and alright movie to watch. not really worth to watch again in the movies. haha.

anyway. heres the pic of my hair before im gonna cut tomorrow. hence the title goodbye!
Support Product(blue) not (red) =)

-zach
is back and kicking.

[[ Zach ]]*|12:45 AM|

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

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Hey all,

its been a difficult monday. i've been slacking too much, and i need to buck up. but im too slack to buck up. HOW? argh.
i lost my self discipline. what happened to it. where has it gone.
i want to find it again...

everydays been the same routine. and its killing me.
i need something more. i need to do something more!
is this what people call a backslider? hmm.. dont really know..

RAWR!

Need someone to slap me hard and wake me up from my bloody dream world.
theres like so few things that i actually put in effort to do nowadays.
what cause this change in me. or was it always there just that someone always kept reminding me of its consequences.

Is there a too late for me?
or is this just the beginning?

MARK WAKE UP!
*slaps slaps slaps*
ITS MY FINAL YEAR! I NEED TO STUDY!!!
*SLAPS SLAPS SLAPS*

okay. this post is really random or really serious.
*continues to knock head on table*

-zach
is back to insanity.

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